Resurrect the Love

Chapter Forty- Four

Harry's POV

We decided to set the wedding after she give birth then I agreed to what she wanted.

Being with her and our daughter makes me feel so happy. Feels like... I'm slowly moving on..?

I'm trying..

I'm now swaying Charlize while I'm humming to her here at the balcony

So this is the feeling when you have a child to take care of and a woman who is always there, taking care of you. I love this feeling.

But maybe.., I would love to feel if she's still here with me..

I just took a deep breath and tried to smile as I returned to focus on Charlize

Everytime when I'm swaying Charlize while I'm humming to her, i feel like all my problems had gone. My love for her is so unconditional.

"Daddy loves you, sweetie.." I whispered and kissed softly her lips.

Then Sandra came out of the bathroom, looking so stressed.

"Honey, are you okay?" I asked. Then she looked at me and just smiled at me but in her smile, I can sense that there is something going on but I don't know..

I've been seeing Sandra always aching her head but everytime I ask her, she always say it's just a headache. But getting worried can't just pull away from me.

She went to me and pecked my lips.

"I'm alright. Just tired cause of works in the hospital. You know we had lots of patients last week because of fire bomb in the city. Gosh,..it was terrible.." She said

Then Charlize suddenly cried

"Ohh look at her..She's hungry..Ohh my baby.." She said softly 

"Let me feed her." She said so I carefully passed Charlize to her.

I'm just looking at them..and I smiled

I went to the bathroom to pee then my gaze landed on this small bottle of medicine. I narrowed my eyebrows as I went to look at it

Cyclophosphamide

Hey wait a minute..

This isn't an ordinary medicine...

My body got froze for a moment still holding this, thinking

How long she's been hiding this from me..?

Then the door suddenly opened. I saw Sandra looked at me and her gaze laded on what I'm holding

"H..harry..?"

"Why??" I said holding back my tears

"Harry, let me explain..." She said

"Why??" I said and a tear escaped

"Harry, I am going to tell you about this."

"But when?? Huh Sandra? When?? When you're already blind??"

"Harry please, don't be mad at me..I was just scared. Okay...? I wasn't ready! I never thought it will come back." She said getting teary

I sat on the edge of the bathtub as I looked down

Why I can't be just happy??

I thought when I entered this new chapter, I will not get sad or get hurt again..

Why can't everything just be perfect, at least once?

"Harry please, talk to me.." She said with her breaking tone