Resurrect the Love

Chapter Twenty-Three

Jennifer's POV

No, this can't be happened!

My body is shaking, my heart is beating so fast

No, this can't be! I won't let him think what is not right

I followed him until I reached the parking lot of the hotel, even though I'm sore and my legs were still shaking, i couldn't walk straight but I managed to follow him and there, I saw him sitting on the ground, staring at something as his back is pressed on the wheel of his car

I took a deep breath and walked closer to him

My knees were trembling as I make each steps closer to him, 

"Harry..?"

He looked up to me and I see tears in his face

Oh God...

He wiped it with his hand

"Why are you here?" He asked as he stood up from the ground 

My hands are shaking and I can't even look straight at his eyes

"H..Harry.., It's not what you think. I had no idea who will be the guy! He hurt me..." I said with my voice starts to crack and I wrapped my arms around me not realizing the tears already escaped

Harry sighed hard as he rub his head

"Then, what do you want me to think? That you didn't mean it? That you don't regret what happened?? You did it, you agreed with it, you enjoyed it!"

I looked at him. Seeing his teary blue eyes makes me feel so guilty 

"And so I knew, you had sex with Ryan! That's Ryan Jen!!! It's Ryan!!" He shouted and a tear escaped from his eyes

It's breaking me seeing him like this 

"So what was the feeling? Was it good? Did he fvcked you good in bed, huh?" He shouted 

and then 

I slapped him..

Me? Enjoyed it? Did I enjoyed having sex with someone who tried to rape me back then? Harry still had no idea about it..

"You...don't you ever say that to me because you don't know what I feel! You don't know what's the feeling being a toy of anyone because you have no choice but to do it anyway because there is someone who needs my help! And don't you ever say that I enjoyed having sex with Ryan because you have no idea about the pain I felt!" I said with my tears steaming down my face

His face changed, like he's thinking 

"You have no idea, Harry what I've been through...you don't know what I felt when I'm away from you.." I said shaking lightly my head as my tears continues to flow 

"Then why did you leave me? You left! You didn't even say anything to me! You were gone with a wind, Jen! I waited for you! Do you think, in 10 years, I forget the pain you marked on me? The pain is still there!! I've been longing to see you again! I never stopped praying that someday, I'll see you again and embrace you again!"

He shouted as i could hear in the end his cracked voice

Seeing him like this really breaks my heart. I remember, he doesn't usually cry over somebody and if he is, then this someone must be very special to him

It took me seconds to open my mouth,

"If i tell you the reason, can you rewind the past and maybe--" I said but I sobbed

I sighed had

"prevent what happened? Huh?" I asked with my voice breaking

He looked at me with his glistening eyes

"I don't know..." He said shaking lightly his head

"Do you still remember? That I used to protect you from the guys that wanted to rape you! I never let that happened and so i fought. Jen, You should've told me what was the problem! Because I was your boyfriend who was ready to protect you! And what did you do? You just ran away! And leave be behind!" He said with his tears flowing 

How will I tell him??

That I got raped by the head of our campus?

If I tell him, then what could happen next?

He'll probably beat Mr. Cooper and I know what will happen when he do that. 

And so I hide it...buried on the ground.

I was happy cause Harry graduated and became a successful Doctor like he wanted to be 

I can't help it but to let a tear escaped from my eyes

"I still love you...Jen...why did you leave me?" He mumbles and looked away 

"Fvck this feeling.." He then spat a fake laughed as he run his fingers through his hair 

Should I tell him the truth?

It took me seconds to open my mouth 

I took a deep breath and wiped my tears

"You know.,All the men that I've been with. All the men that touched me, none of them got my heart. I never enjoyed being with them...because there is still someone...Someone that I want to touch me like he used to and be with me..." 

I came closer to him as I leaned closer my face to his

I couldn't stop my tears flowing, he's just looking at me with his teary eyes

I cupped his face and wiped his tears with my thumbs 

"I'm sorry this is happening. I'm sorry for what happened between us and I'm sorry cause I hurt you.." I said almost whispering with my voice cracking and then I hugged him, very tight

He didn't say anything but I felt his hands pressed on my back

This feeling, I never forget this feeling being with him. I never forget how i feel when I'm hearing his heart beat.

I slowly pulled away and looked into his eyes, my arms are still wrapped around his neck

"I still love you, too.." I whispered and a tear escaped from my eyes

Harry's POV

"I still love you, too.." 

What she just said is still echoing inside my head

No matter how I tried to hate her, I just can't 

My love for her is still bigger than the anger I'm feeling right now

I know, Ryan wanted to get what he wanted and I know that he's not serious about Jennifer. 

Jennifers still looking at me with her sparkling hazel brown eyes. How can I hate her?  

I cupped her face and wiped her tears, I also wiped her dried tears and tucked her hair behind her ear 

She then smiled, so sweetly but with teary eyes

I hugged her again and embraced her again. I put kisses on the side of her head and embrace her more

"I'm sorry too..." I said almost whispered 

I felt she smiled

"You're here now with me...that's all i need right now.." She whispered 

And then I felt her body fell on me, she fainted