local {joji x reader}

four

"ready?" he asks you swinging the keys around his finger.

"i don't want to be but yeah." you sigh and move closer to the door. "i'll see you in a little bit." you say to katt and she nods.

"good luck." she says with a wave. we head out to the car and get in. we're silent for a good five minutes, you had given him the address prior to this so he knows where he's going.

"so what's he like?" joji asked. you thought for the words, remembering his tormentingly attractive face.

"attractive. and he knew it too." you pondered another adjective to describe his dry personality. "shallow as well. it's always surface with him, he never gave me time to explore what was underneath."

"that's annoying." he replied. you nodded your head in agreement.

"imagine trying to love someone like that." you looked at the ground of the car. "i don't know how i did it for so long."

"why didn't you just leave?"

"i uh.. i guess i didn't really know how." you admitted. "i needed an excuse. that um... predicament was my escape."

it was silent after that. you both didn't really know what to say. you pulled up to the apartment complex fairly quickly. you jumped out, joji following you as you walked.

"you don't, um," you looked him up and down and flashed a sincere smile. "you don't have to come in."

"why else would i have come?" he matched your smile with his own. "i'm here to help."

you both made your way into the elevator and you pressed the floor, six. flashbacks from you running flooded your mind. you laugh snapping out of your thoughts, noticing how dirty the place really was.

"sorry.. this place is a mess." you chuckle.

"not your fault. but if you think this is a mess," he turns to you "you should see my  apartment complex." he jokes.

the elevator dings when it hits your destination, the doors opening at your arrival. you were a bit nervous to say the least, you didn't know what to say to h/n. you make your way to the door and stop, looking at the cracks and specs on it. you wanted to run as far away as you could.

you sighed, raising your hand to knock, then lowering it. your anxiety levels were sky high. what to do, what to do, what do you do?

"want me to do it?" joji asked bringing you back to earth.

"uhm no, no. i can do it." you give him that sincere smile again. "i can." you raise your hand once more to knock and proceed with the action without hesitation. within no time, h/n is at the door.

"what do you-" he hiccups. "want?" he's clearly intoxicated.

"are you?" you look him over and scoff in disgust. "nevermind, not my problem. let me in, h/n." you say annoyed, trying to avoid eye contact.

"what for?" he giggles.

"i need my stuff, now let me in." you say once more.

"now wait just a minute." he motions towards joji. "is this your new boyfriend?"

"no, h/n. he's not-"

"replaced me that quick?" he moves out of the way and almost falls over. "what a fucking surprise!"

you and joji walk past him and to your room.

"i'm not done y/n-" he tries to get out but you slam the door at the noise.

"just stuff as much as you can into these bags." you say tossing him one garbage bag.

"how do i know what is and isn't yours?" he asks looking around.

"whatever looks feminine enough." you say. you make your way to the closet and start stuffing. he opens the first drawer to reveal your undergarments. you look over to him sifting through. "uh, how about you get the closet." you say.

"sounds good." he says, not making an awkward situation of it.

in the matter of 10 minutes you both had cleared the room of any possession of yours, you'd never know you were there. you made your way to the bathroom and quickly stuffed the rest of your belongings in the bag.

"okay let's go." you whisper to joji, hoping to escape this place before h/n noticed.

"i can't believe this!" h/n screamed with the bottle of vodka in his hand.

shit.

"you did it to yourself." you said. "but what's the point in  fighting? you won't even remember it in the morning."

"you lying whore." he came closer to you.

"that's enough." joji cut in. h/n slapped you, the impact made you fall on the ground. astonished, you laid there and watched. "you monster!" joji screamed punching him.

from all the alcohol, he fell to the ground and passed out. joji made his way towards you and helped you up.

"i'm so sorry this happened." he said.

"me too. i didn't mean for it to.. i didn't want this to-" you said, voice cracking from the tears ready to fall.

"it's okay." he reassured you. you both left the place with your stuff, hoping to never return. you got into the elevator and tried to keep it together. you looked away from him, holding the railing and letting the tears fall. he inched a bit closer. "i'm so sorry." he apologized once more. you waved a hand towards him, warding him to back away.

"please. it's not your fault. just give me a second." you said. after a few more tears you wiped them away and composed yourself. you looked straight forward with your head high up as the doors began to open.

"this was meant to happen."

"no, no i don't agree with that."

"everything i ever love hurts me, it always happens. nothings going to change." you pause.

"it's fate."