A Part Of Him, A Part Of Me

Chapter 16

Isn't it funny how one second can change your whole world? When you look down at the pregnancy test and it says positive; when you look to see your one true love on one knee in front of you; when you see the gender on the screen telling you what you will be having for a child; and when you are told that you have placenta praevia and that you and your child's life is in danger if you continue the pregnancy.

&&&&

"Come on Kaitlynn, let's get you to bed." Jake says when we walk in the apartment after coming home from the hospital.

I don't argue with him and walk straight to the bedroom, climbing into the bed.

"Do you need anything baby?" He asks me.

"Can you get me a glass of water?" I ask him and he nods, walking out to the kitchen and coming back with a glass for me.

He climbs in the bed on the other side and pulls me close.

"What are we going to do?" I say after a few minutes.

"I really don't know Kaitlynn. I really really don't." He says and we let silence come between us while we both think of what is going to happen now.

I have Placenta Praevia, a disease that could possibly kill me in labor and also our baby girl. They said that there is a chance of survival if we continue the pregnancy, but I would have to limit my daily routines and be watched carefully.

"Jake?" I say into the silence.

"Yeah baby?" He responds.

"I don't want to end the pregnancy."

"Kaitlynn, you are just emotional right now. Let's just talk about this later after you have had some rest."

"No we are going to talk about it now." I say sitting up and looking at him, getting angry.

"Kaitlynn stop."

"No! You are not going to sit here and tell me I am not strong enough to talk about this with you."

"I didn't say that."

"That's what you implied Jake!"

"But I didn't say it!"

"We are not going to abort this baby! Whether it kills me or not, this is another life inside of me Jake!"

By now we are both standing up yelling at one another.

"Kaitlynn I can't lose you do you understand that! It isn't even 100 percent guaranteed that you will survive or if she will survive!"

"Jake you have to understand something! Even if I don't survive, you will have our daughter. She will have my genes. You will still have me through her. And it's not guaranteed that I won't survive either!"

"I don't want to lose you!"

"I know you don't Jake, but you have to listen to me. It will be okay, no matter what."

"I need a sign Kaitlynn. I need a sign that everything will be okay."

Right at that moment, I feel our daughter kick. I quickly grab Jake's hand and put it to where she is kicking and tears fill his eyes as he feels our daughter respond to his touch.

"Jake we are having this baby." I tell him, tears streaming down my face.

"Okay, we will have this baby. I just don't want to lose you. I can't do this on my own and I need you in my life."

"I know Jake, but I don't worry about you for a second. You have so many people who will love this baby and help you as much as they can. But let's just continue this pregnancy like we would if I didn't have this. I just have to cut back a little bit."