You'll click on this and expect it to be a self pity poem. Nah I'm good actually I don't like self pity to be honest. This is just a warning to everyone who has someone they love whether it be a parent or a friend or someone they're in a relationship with.
Don't screw up Okay? And for all those people who can't feel and are empty on the inside and cut or are suicidal but are still strong enough on the inside to control themselves.... please stay alone. You're too strong, too insensitive to love someone more fragile than you.
Listen, not everyone who is depressed is weak. There are those out there who are too strong to love to strong to be loved. There are those out there who cut to try not to be so strong. Those people are better off alone. I was one of those people.
Here's a bit of advice to people who love someone like that. Love them, but from a distance. It's the best thing you'll do for them. Cause if not they will hurt you. It's all they know how to do.
Know the difference between those who are weak, unstable and those who are strong, stable. Those people are the ones who will kill without reason and break souls and minds with no conscious. Love them yes, but know what they're emptiness and insensitivity is capable of.
Those people, the ones who don't sleep, the ones who never have peace, the ones whose minds are too mature, they are capable of great things but can easily cause great destruction and dance in its ashes with no regards.
I'm going to ask mom if she can check me into an institution cause I truly believe, no i know, something is severely wrong with me. And I'm getting much worse and it's not good.
I'm not depressed but I think I'm going insane. As in sociopath psychopath insane.
The dreams are getting worse, the shaking, the constant need to blank out or scream, all of it. I'm going crazy and I know I'm going to physically hurt someone if I don't get help soon.
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Steady falling into madness
Insanity
Grabbing
Me
Steady losing my conscious
Demons
Reach
Constantly
Steady becoming stone
Emotions
Steady
Draining
Steady losing myself
Faster
Faster
FASTER
And soon I'll be gone.
The heart monitor
Will loose my heartbeat
And ill sink
Into nothing
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Solitary crowds
PoetryLove does strange things to me when I'm in different states of mind. I think this will be the best poetry book out of all the ones I have written so far. Because this one is going to be filled with unbearable confusion. Because that is where my mind...
