Guess who's back, back again....
*I literally wrote that three years ago what was I doing ^^^^*
So this is a draft I wrote in 2016 before I lost my account (or so I thought).
I am still extremely passionate in fanfic writing and would love to create more!
But I'm still shook about getting this account back...
So yeah
Hello again Wattpad
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Simon's P.O.V
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I wake up, again. It's beginning to kill me physically. I can't go ONE night without waking up constantly and not being able to obtain hardly any sleep.
Even when I do wake up in the morning, I feel physically drained of energy. I fucking hate it. 99.9% of my body is literally caffeine judging on the amount of coffee I consume.
I check my phone, it reads 3:00am.
That's when I notice the message, obviously I wouldn't heard it in my 'sleep' as I have the don't disturb setting on. Mainly because every minute of 'sleep' I can get is a gift. So I treat it like it as it's so rare and important.
I was only diagnosed with insomnia about a month ago and I haven't really opened up about it to anyone. Even my parents, yes that's really stupid that I'm keeping that from them but the only thing I like about having no energy whatsoever is keeping secrets. I can literally say a few sentences and BOOM I'm knocked out. It's great!
Obviously the guys are noticing the differences with me. Their always just throwing questions at me, "Are you okay?", "I think you should go to the doctors.." etc etc.
Luckily I can get say I have a cold because one, my insomnia only worsened this past week and two, it's winter. I can't tell them, I don't want them to be taking care of me like an old man. I'm so scared of telling anyone, because it's not the only secret I've been keeping....
Anywayyy, I promised Cal I would come over to his to record videos today, mine have all been pre-recorded. For some reason I stupidly agreed to Cal. Which was dumb, I'll probably be end up passing out in a chair or something. Oh god.
Twenty minutes and I still can't sleep. All I can think of is Cal, why did I agree to him omg that was dumb ugh I hate myself. Literally I hate how I am. Why do I even have insomnia ? :((
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I wake up and finally see daylight coming through the curtains!! Though I'm extremely exhausted I jump out of bed, then collapse back on it. That was a brilliant idea Simon... :/
Eventually I finally get up, eventually meaning twenty minutes later. I do need to get to Cal's by eleven and it's already ten. I haven't even had I shower yet!
*buzz*
I check my phone, it's from Cal;
Be ready by eleven, I'm coming to pick your ass up x
Are you sure? x
Course ;) x
