(Don't listen to the song yet wait for me to say that you can okay!)
They dropped me off early and they all went home.
I walked into my house slowly crying because I think I just lost my Jc.
I went to the kitchen to make myself some food so that I could eat and I started to binge watch my favorite show.
I got up and cleaned all of my things that I used and that I was wearing.
I went to the garage slowly and grabbed a rope and took it inside.
I played with it for a little bit, I did climbing, jump rope, even made a lasso and caught a few things around the house breaking it.
I was fixing everything that I broke when my phone went off.
"Hello?" I asked "Hi Linda it's Jc," he said "oh hi Jc." I said looking down "So Linda... um... I just called to say that I don't think we should be boyfriend and girlfriend any more." He said as tears fall from my face "W-why?" I said "Because I love you to muck to date you." He said "Linda... will you make me the hap-" I cut him off. "Jc if you were going to ask me to merry you it's to late... I'm done with my life... goodbye Jc... I love you."I said as I hung up the phone
I took the rope and made a noose and took it to my 'supply room' and tied it to the ceiling.
I grabbed a stool and put my head in the noose while looking through my window to see the full moon.
I moved the stool and hung myself still looking at the full moon as a single tear left my eye.
Jc and the rest ran into the house with my mom as soon as he finished talking to me through the phone and told them about it and got my mom from work.
They looked all over the house when Sam opened my 'supply room' and called the rest down.
"I FOUND HER!!!" He screamed "Jc and Samantha I'm so sorry I'm so SO sorry." Sam said to Jc and my mom as they walked to my dead hanging body I was looking out at the full moon.
She found a note and yes it was addressed to my mum so it was perfect... sorta.
She and the rest started to cry when she read it out loud.
(Turn on the song and read this along with it)
Just an average girl, she always wore a smile
she was cheerful and happy for a short while
now she's older things are getting colder life's not what she thought, she wish someone had told her
she told you she was down, but you let it slip by
so from then on she kept it on the inside
she told herself she was alright but she was telling white lies
can't you tell? look at her dull eyes
tried to stop herself from crying almost every night
but she knew there was no chance of feeling all right
Summer came by, all she wore were long sleeves
'cause those cuts on her wrists were bleeding through you see
she knew she was depressed didn't want to admit it
didn't think she fit in everyone seemed to miss it
she carried on like a soldier with a battle wound
bleeding out from every cut her body consumed
she had no friends at school, all alone she sat
and if someone were to notice she would blame that cat
but those cuts on her wrist they were no mistake
but no one cared enough to save her from this self hate
things were going down, never really up
and here she is now stuck in this stupid rut
she knew exactly what she had to do next
just stand on that chair and tie a rope around her neck
She wrote a letter with her hands shaking wild
"look at me now are you proud of your precious child?"
but she knew that her parents weren't the ones to blame
it was the world that should bow down it's head in shame
she stood up on the chair and looked out at the moon
just don't think, it'll all be over soon
the chair fell down as she took her final breath
it's all over, all gone, now she's greeting death
her mum walks in, she falls down to the floor
And now nothing can take back what she just saw
the little girl that she raised is just hanging there
Her body's pale and her face is violently bare
she sees the note and unfolds it with care
all she does is stare "how can this be fair?"
she starts reading as the tears roll down her face
"i'm sorry mum but this world is just not my place
i've tried for so long to fix this and fit in
i've come to realize this world's full of sin
there's nothing for me here i'm just a waste of space
i've got no reason to stay here with this awful race
it's a disgrace i was misplaced
born in the wrong time and in the wrong place
it's okay though 'cause you'll see me soon
you'll now when it's your time has come just look at the moon
as it shines bright throughout the night
and remember everyone's facing there own fight
but i can't deal with the pain i'm not a fighter
you'll make it through the night just hug your pillow tighter
so let the world know that i died in vain
'cause the world around me is the one to blame
and i know in a year you'll forget i'm gone
'cause i'm not really something to be dwelled on
that's what they used to tell me, all those kids at school
so i'm going by the law majority rules
my presence on this earth is not needed any longer
and if anything i hope this makes you stronger
Your the best friend that i've ever had
such a shame i had to make you so very sad
just remember that you meant everything to me
and to my heart you're the only one who held the key
now it's time to go i'm running out of space to write
and yes i lost my fight but please just hold on tight
i'm watching over you from the clouds above
and sending down the purest and whitest dove
to watch over you and be my helpful eye
so this is it world
goodbye."
