don't say otherwise | bts - vminkook

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sometimes things don't work out because there's something even more beautiful out there waiting for you.

-

jimin pov

jeon jungkook.

i don't even know where to begin.

he's so beautiful.

so kind.

so smart.

so popular.

and so very much straight.

what am i?

as straight as that faucet in your washroom.

yeah.

i wish he would notice me.

well he does,

but it's not as you would think it would be.

let's just say, he's a little homophobic.

just a little.

it's okay.

i mean it doesn't stop me from liking him.

he even comes to see me everyday.

in the bathroom,

at lunch time,

he and i would be there

and i let him use me.

.

.

.

oh no!

not in that way.

i've never thought about that.

i let him punch and kick me.

he tells me that it's for practice.

that he needs a punching bag when he has to let out his frustrations.

i don't mind.

i would do anything to be close to him.

he even whispers mean words in my ear

saying stuff like

"ugly."

"stupid."

"fat."

"faggot."

he probably wants to say it to other people but i just happen to be there when he does.

i wear long sleeves and long pants.

the blacks, blues and purples aren't that pretty on my skin so i try to hide it.

sometimes i stay in the washroom for a long time.

thankfully people don't come in that often.

sometimes i cry.

i don't even know why either.

i feel down too and the words he says kinda hurt.

maybe there's something wrong with me.

i look at my arms sometimes.

there's red lines across my arms from the times jungkook would drag a razor over it.

he says that i would look prettier.

and i trust him.

i like him so much that nothing else matters than what he says or does.