Happy Endings Aren't True. #theliteraryawards2017

Only An Illusion Of Fate.

SOOOOO HEY GUYS. I'm back after more then a month and im extremely sorry but this time I have legit reasons well kinda.

1) I had) currently attended 3 on going weddings one after the other.

2) I had LUMUN if u dont know what it is then go look it up and then you will understand that I wasnt home for basically five days only came back to sleep and went back.

3) I had exams.

4) I was lazy af.

5) I wrote this chapter. Read it. Hated it. Deleted it. Wrote it again. Read it. Found it good enough. I posted it.

Please also note that I fucking suck at writing sad scenes so please forgive me if they are very lame. HEHE.

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They say ' Fate doesn't ask you what you want. Fate knows whats best even if you dont.'

"Is death what is best for me! TELL ME. WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS?" I screamed at the bare walls in my room crying, trashing the room, throwing things on the ground. Making a mess.

"WHAT SIN IS IT THAT I HAVE COMMITTED? WHY DOES THE WORLD HATE ME SO MUCH? STOP MY SUFFERING STOP IT!" My voice echoing against the walls but it fell on deaf ears. I felt so weak so vulnerable, my knees gave out form underneath making me crash on the ground. The rough carpet coming in contact with soft skin. Leaving scratch marks.

I silently sobbed as I felt warm arms wrap around me. Looking up through my tear-filled vision I could see my brothers holding me protectively. "Why?" I kept chanting as my voice started to die down and darkness consumed me.

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The days passed. Each day feeling like a decade. Giving me more time to drown in my sorrows. I refused to leave my room, to meet the people around me. I refused to live. I couldn't come to tell any of my friends about the news but not telling them would be unfair so i did what I thought best. I asked my brothers to tell everyone of my friends except Thomas. If I was going to tell some one then that was him. When? I dont know.

I know it seems unfair to everyone, but what was I supposed to do? Go up to them tell them that i'm basically a dead girl, but dont cry I will always be there, I wont leave. Look up in the stars and I will be there.

Bull Shit.

When a person dies they die. People mourn but they forget. So why not make them forget before so they would never have to go through the pain of mourning.

Every day one of my brothers would come in my room telling me that my friends are there to meet me. Wanting to spend time with me. I simply refused. I didnt want to feel happiness because happiness gives hope but where is the hope in dying. Everyday I would here Thomas knock on the other side of the locked door of my room asking me to let him in. Asking me to tell him why I wasn't coming to school. It pained my heart to hear his pleads, his obliviousness broke me. He didnt know. I couldnt come to tell him.

Closing my eyes I rested my head against the pillow drifting to sleep.

"Ashley." a soft voice whispered. My eyes slowly opened looking around to see white plain white everywhere. I looked down to see my self in a white silk gown slowly standing up I could see a large mirror on one of the white walls.

My skin looked flawless, my hair tamed and cut shorter, my face looked happy. "Ashley." I heard the voice speak again staring up at the mirror I could see Josh's reflection standing behind me. A soft gasp escaped my lips as I turned around only to find nothing.