Broken Home

Chapter 12

Recap
*Ashton's POV*
"I mean Just because you had a worse past doesn't mean I don't feel the way you did" I said remembering what makes me feel better when I get depressing thoughts. I quickly jumped up and jogged to my bedroom.

*Ashton's POV*
I started to dig through the messy area called my bedroom. After about 5 minutes I was about to give up when I finally found it.

"Finally" I let out a sigh.

I stood to my feet and walked out to the living room. When I reach my destination, Jacqui was not out there and the boys were whispering.

After a minute of me walking in Luke looked up.

"Are you ok?" He asked with a concerned and almost sad look in his face.

"Yeah I'm fine don't worry about me, where's Jacqui?" I ask gazing around the room.

"I'm assuming she went to her room" Calum said joining the conversation.c

"Ok thanks" I said jogging up to her bedroom.

Once I reach her door I lightly knock and open it.

"Hey can we talk?" I ask walking towards her bed.

"Yeah" she said with a strained voice.

"I want you to have this," I say as I place my journal in front of her.

"I know you aren't in the best place, and you probably haven't been in a while.. so I'm going to give you this. It's my journal, for when I feel like cutting. I'm not saying you have to use it, try it. I just right the things down that make me upset. Just please promise you will try and stop?

*Jacqui's POV*

I'm speechless. After all the shit I put them through, they still care.

They care

I look up and sees Ashton's gaze burning a hole through me.

All I do is huge him.

"Thank you" I whisper.

"Your welcome, Jacqui I need you to know that is you ever need to talk to someone, I'm here. "

"I know" I say looking away

"We love you"

I stiffen keeping my head down

"W-what"

"Jacqui we care about you so much, we can't loose you"

"I love you guys too. Ash can I just rest for a little while please?"

"Of corse love, I'll be with the boys downstairs"

"Thanks" I say as I watch him exit my room.

I don't understand. It almost angers me that people that I just meet love me and my parents couldn't. I don't know what I did to deserve them. I definitely don't know what I did to deserve the boys. No one had ever loved me. But I love them too.

*Ashton's POV*

After I shut Jacqui's door I head downstairs to the boys all sitting and chatting.

"How'd it go?" Michael asked catching the attention of the other boys.

"Ok, she's shook up and clearly needs some time to adjust to people who care about her"

"Ok" the boys said shaking their heads.

"Anyways, are you guys talking about?" I ask casually changing the subject.

"Actually, now that you mentioned it, I was going to ask you guys when you think would be a good idea for Jacqui to meet Arzayleah?" Luke asked

"Not yet, I would  give her time" Michael replayed.

"Well it might be good for her to meet another female, I mean think about it guys, she has been surrounded by 4 guys." Calum responded

"That might be a good idea.." Ashton said

"Alright I'll tell she can meet jacqui this weekend!" Luke said excitedly

I am scared that someone might attack me for not updating.. IM SO SORRY. I have had a rough past couple of months. Biology is hard as fuck and I'm basically failing it. My Dziadziu (great grandfather) past away a few months ago... a bunch of shit. Anyway.... I promise I will try and update more frequently, schools hard so once it's summer vacation (a few months away:)) I will update more frequently because I have like no friends:D
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