My First love (Seme Male Reader x Rock) {Nanbaka}

chapter 5

the next morning....

reader pov

i sighed. i woke up this morning back in samon's bed. he was on my chest. both of us still fully clothed, minus the shoes. at first i thought nothing of it, simply thinking that i came back last night, probably drunk, and fell asleep in his bed. i honesty thought we would have had sex too but all those hopes were crashed when he turned his head to lay on his other ear. i caught a glimpse of his face. split lip, huge bruise on his temple, and a black eye told me....shit. i didnt want to believe it. mitsuru would come in yelling every morning but i didnt pay any attention to him cause nothing ever showed up on samon's face but this time......i dont know. i must have been more fucked up about it than i ever thought i was. for him to be hurt this bad. for the marks to....to show up so vividly the morning after. i dont know if he was my target or what. either way he got the blunt of something. last night i lost control....and i hurt the man i love. there isn't an excuse in the world i could give. i thought this whole time that someone else was doing it to him but.....it was me. i thought mitsuru was lying. that he was only trying to split me and him apart. that he was just jealous of what we have. shit. i didnt think id cry for something like this. guys never cry, right? he started groaning, rubbing his head. he leaned up to look at me and the evidence was so much more clear than ever. it was irrefutable. it shown on his face.

i traced the markings, wishing that this wasn't real. that mitsuru had only put make up on him to show me what could have happened but....well ive seen it before. ive felt it before. hell, ive done it to so many other people who were unfortunate enough to be in the wrong place, time, doing the wrong thing to the wrong person. its....its real. he caressed my hand as i felt his face. the split lip, the blood that dried to cover the wound. the bruise's swelling was going down but had a long way to go before it was gone too. not to mention the swelling black eye. it was agitated by the few tears that escaped his eye as he kissed me. this time it was a little different. not only was it more lustful than it has ever been but....it felt like he...."i love you," he whispered before kissing me again, this time moving to straddle me. his arousal was evident as he ground his hips into mines. it was that one statement that made me realize...that this will never change. it wont change unless i leave. i...i cant stick around knowing that every time i get drunk...ill hurt him. who knows how many times he has been hurt because of me. what if....what if i wake up and he isn't there anymore because of me? no! i wont let it happen. i wont give it a chance to happen. ill....ill leave. that's all i can do. i still have about 500 bucks of my savings. i can get a little motel room to cover a place to stay. about 200 for a week will get me a good place to stay until i get my pay check. ill have to survive off cheap food for a while but it will pay off in the end because....well samon will be able to move on with his life, not having to worry about when my next rampage will come and if he will survive it this time. i already bought a carton of cigarettes so ill be good for a long while. gonna have to really get this drinking under control.

this is the last time we make love so....i want it to be memorable. i get the feeling that this was the only thing i was really good at. the only good trade off when it came to being with me. i was on top of him, quickly removing his clothes.

my lips were all over his body, earning hitched breaths and low moaning. i sucked on his hardening nipples, working my way down till i kissed his throbbing member. a combination of my bobbing and fingering left him breathless. i spread his legs far apart and pulled his hips up before licking his succulent hole. it twitched as i French kissed it, taking big mouthfuls of his firm cheeks and lightly biting down.

it wasn't long before i was ready to enter him. his gaze was piercing and his blush was dark as i positioned myself against him. his hand held to mines as i slowly entered him, watching the hole spread itself in the face of my throbbing girth. i firmly planted myself inside him and, after giving him a moment to adjust, i started thrusting, quickly making his head hit the head board and cum uncontrollably.