A Haunted Past

A Note Of Thanks

Typically this would go at the end of a story, but this story is different. I feel that if I am to begin something anew, I have to appreciate the good from my past, so here I am and that is what I am doing.

To my little brother, who,  despite being the second most annoying child I had ever met (don't ask), made me happier than I could have ever been in my darkest times. I kept going for you, I wanted to protect you from the harshness of life, protect you from the pain I had been through. Sure we fought a lot, but the second I heard dad on the phone talking about those stupid kids that had been bullying you, I got so mad. After all, I'm the only one allowed to ruffle your hair and call you short.

To mum, who shows her affection, even when she's grumpy at the world. You kept going at your pain in the butt job, even though it made you so angry at your co workers, even though it meant you couldn't sleep for worry and couldn't bare to wake up in the morning. You did it for us, your family, so we could continue to eat and so we didn't have to move into this terrible house. I love you mum.

To dad, yes you. You find it hard to show your love for us, yes we realise how its weird for you to say 'I love you'. But even when you don't, as a family, we know you do. It's so typical how you call my bras 'top thingys' and refuse to look at me in the eye when we're doing the washing together. It's sooo typical how you can't even say the word 'period' without frantically looking for an escape from the room. However, I've put you through a lot in the past year. If you were to read this you'd know exactly what I mean because I remember coming into that room and seeing your's and mum's red eyes. You comforting her as she wiped the tears from her cheeks. I was scared that day. So scared that you were going to hate me for ruining the family, but you didn't. We dealt with it and that is what is not typical about you.

I have two main friends that I want to thank, but know that 'milkybar kid' and the whole of the 'cheesecake' group are also greatly appreciated. If you see this and wonder why I haven't made a paragraph on the each of you, it's because I can't put it into words.

To Sa- I mean Ribena. I mean, what can I say? Over the past three years our friendship has taken many twists and turns, the thought of the memories we have shared.. memes... BTS.. Dan...Phil...Shawn Mendes..anime..frutinas...'beer'.. and so many more. You know exactly who you are. You're the person that could make me laugh when I was sobbing my heart out. You're the person that knew when to ask questions and when to just stay out of it (looking at you milkybar kid). You're the person that took pictures of me from across the room because you thought I looked creepy (did not! Actually never mind you still have that photo). You're one of the main reasons I got through a whole load of dog poop, reminding me not to cry, but to craft.

Now 'Cat' I don't really have any nicknames that aren't rude for you so 'Cat' will have to do. I remember you saying to me 6 months after our friendship started that when you saw me you knew that we were going to be friends. You've been repeating that to me for over 2 years now, maybe it was the loner in you speaking that day, but we're still friends so that counts for something. I always told you about relationship problems first because Ribena's advice always included killing them, but also because we went through a lot together, especially with Trav face. I think you know how much you helped me and if you don't, imagine the universe. Done? Okay, now multiply that with the infinite amount that the universe is growing. Exactly. It doesn't make sense.

William, William, William. You always were like a little brother to me, I could never not be happy when talking to you, or even being in your presence.  We bonded over 'The Flash', you not even believing me at first when I said I watched it (me not being cool enough '__'). Then we came up with theories about, you getting yours all right. It's not my fault you read the comics. But then you forced me into this wonderful, beautiful, terrifying world (no not Tumblr) a world known as 'anime'. I am a forever will be obsessed with anime, especially Tokyo Ghoul and FMAB. If you ever read this Will, then at least know that I still have the spring.

To Barney, Rosie, Ronnie and the four goldfish that we never named. Rest In Peace, for you were all deeply loved.

To Reggie, who will hopefully live a long and fun filled life.

So this has been fun, right? Anyway, readers don't actually give a house about this chapter, but oh well, it's not like people are going to read my book anyway.

I don't really know how to do the whole bye thing. 

Does it just end magically or what? 

What do I say?

YOU SHALL NOT PASS... No that's not it..

You cannot gain something without sacrificing something else in return. No, no Edward allowed.

Huh I wonder what to-