Something about life makes me want to die so badly. Why is every thing so messed up. Why are people confusing. I hate people. All they cause is pain. So much pain I want to die.
I though he liked me. He even said so. HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND. He asked me out a week ago. I thought he meant it. Now I know he was lying. Nothing matters. I should just kill my self. No one wants me. He doesn't want me.
He acts like nothing is wrong. He doesn't even realize how much of a big deal this is to me. He the first person I truly liked. I thought he liked me too. I was so wrong. I'm nothing.
Maybe Alaska was right. The only way out is straight and fast. I sure hope I can manage to accomplish that. I bet I will fail though. I fail at everything. I even fail at keeping one person interested.
He still wants to talk to me. I don't think I can. It's too much. It will kill me inside to know that he was toying with me. Flirting with me. He has a girlfriend.
Nothing matters anymore. I hope he will realize how much of a terrible person he is. I hate his guts. You don't toy with people like that. YOU DON'T MESS WITH PEOPLES EMOTIONS YOU DEMON. I hate you.
