It was 13th day of May. The party is so wild. Ang mga mukha ng mga tao naka-pikit at nakikipagkasundo sa music, naramdam kong medyo nalalasing na ako dahil umaalon na ang aking paningin pero hindi ko parin kayang mawalan ng ulirat. I've been party girl for years.
Inaaalala ko lahat ng pagba-bar ko noong sa syudad pa ako. I stayed alone in the city for almost three years while my family lived in small province of Mindanao. I was working one of the big company in part of Visayas. I embrace my freedom,-freedom to do what I ever wanted, free will, wrong but liberating. I was a bit wild, and I love to party all the time. It was fine leaving alone, I didn't have worries, problems and hang up in life but then one day nagka'problema ang pamilya namin. I resigned from my job months ago and went back to my hometown.
Sa dami ng alaalang pwede kong alalahanin nong pagbalik ko siya lang ang naiisip ko. If home is where your heart is, then my heart is with him. Suddenly all the memories will seem to come back in blurred details.
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Past*
It was month of october when I first meet Paul. I was positive it was going to work out with this guy. I got giddy when I saw him. My heart beat out of my chest when I was with him, and I felt breathless in his presence.
I met him at time when I never thought I would. I go home to my province for long vacation. It was the festival week in our town when our worlds met. It was a precious moment, an unforgettable one.
Paul is one of my cousin Rona guy close friend. The first time I saw him he already captured my attention. I already saw something special in him. The guy who wear jersey at jogging pants but so good to look at. His handsome face, deep eyes, narrow nose, red lips are so illegal.
It was amazing night. I remember the moment, noong kukuha na sana ako ng chichirya ng biglang naglapat ang kamay namin tapos sabay nagkatinginan. I feel something strange. I feel butterflies floating freely on my stomach. His eyes meet mine, those simple stares capture my heart. He managed to earn my trust that easy. He is everything a girl could ever want. He is charming, smart, classy, manly, and more . We talked everything. I got comfortable with him. Then that what it started. When I was with him, there no dull moment. That's why we agreed to become best friends. We agreed almost everything. Days and weeks go on we enjoy each other's company, palagi kaming magkachat at text, hanggang sa nagka-aminan ng feelings, He like me and I like him. He treat me like special someone. But we were not officially together yet we act like we were. I wonder what our relationship is all about? I'm afraid to ask him. I'm contented like we had for that time. I'm fine without the label. Ayaw kong dahil sa pagpupumilit ko na bigyang status ang meron kami mabasag parang bula ang kaligayahang kong ito.
But time was against us, the moment when I need to go back to city for work the time he finally confessed his love for me. I did the same. It was like right person at the wrong time.
We promised to each other. I promise to comeback and He'll promise to wait. I kept holding on that promise. I thought everything would fall into place when we exchanged our "I love you's". And I never thought that an 'almost relationship' could also break my heart.
