It's been so long since I've last felt a romantic kind of love. I've gotten so used to being by myself that love has become such a blur to me. I often think about what I should do when love comes swooping in? Do I feed it three times a day? What shall I say so that love will stay? And lastly, what shall I do so that love will love me back? Because finding someone to love is easy, but finding someone who will love you back is difficult.
To my future lover, it has been a while for me and I am really rusty, so please bear with me. I love to cuddle a lot but also want to be left alone sometimes. I love long walks while our hands intertwine. I want to annoy you so much but I'm afraid of getting yelled at. I want to know what you love and learn new things from you. Please know that I will often tell you horrible jokes and cringe worthy puns that you will question why you're dating me. Know that I have hobbies that might get on your nerves like laughing hysterically at animal videos, cry to drama anime, yell at my computer when I lose or die in a game, and I play pranks a lot. I really hope none of these bother you.
To my future lover, please know that I am broken. Being rejected so many times can have so many negative effects on you. I'm dwindling, I'm declining, and I'm at my lowest of low. If you ever decide to love me, you're going to have to deal with constant "I need you right now" texts or calls, or me randomly arriving at your doorstep just wanting a long hug, I'll want you to reassure me that you do love me. Now I don't mean that you need to fix me, I just need you to love me and let love do the healing. By the off chance that you yourself are just as broken as I am, let us build each other up, buttercup!
To my future lover, I will love you unconditionally. I have so much love to give and so much affection to offer. I will write you letters and sing you songs. I will understand everything, from your mood swings, monthly periods, rants, problems, and anything that bothers you. This I declare with all my heart and then some.
To my future lover, there will be problems, there will be fights, and there will be misunderstandings. Storms will hit our relationship and try to knock us down or drift us apart. That is why we must build a solid foundation. Let's talk it out before we decide to consult others, let's consult each other first, because the only ones who can solve our problems is ourselves, not the outside factor. We may experience silent days where we need time off from each other, but I will never let you go to bed upset. We are far from perfect, but we are far from over.
Lastly,
To my future and hopefully last lover, let us compliment one another like butter and toast. Fill my void with your amazing stars and we will become each other's galaxy with our love as the universe. Let us share the good and the bad, cries and laughter, coffees and beers. Let us be the forever we never believed in before meeting each other. Let us vow our eternal love to the very manifestation of unconditional love, God, and let Him be our foundation. Because I could love you forever if you just let me.
