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i throw the last of my garbage away, the least i could do was clean leah's neighbor's mansion. and besides, i needed to take something off the thought of losing her, knowing her i know she'll forgive me for the decision that i've made. one day she will. i need her to know that it's for her own good and regardless of the outcome, she should know that i just want her to live the life she deserves. i pack my clothes, walking downstairs quietly.

i didn't have much clothes, just borrowed her neighbor's closet. i couldn't help but smile at the angel that was peacefully snoring on my couch. she stirred as i tucked a brunette hair strand of hers behind her ear. i love you.

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wake up, leah

annoyed, i scrunch my eyebrows. hoping to ignore the distant message.

wake up

i open my eyes, this time the voice was stronger. maybe even aggressive, looking around it was somewhat dark out. the cold air causes goosebumps to arise on my skin.

"shawn?"

i shout, no response. the house felt empty, my voice echoed through the walls. walking around, i don't find him upstairs nor in the basement. nowhere to be seen, i grow worried. where is he?

shawn's pov

driving through the night, my grip on my steering wheel hard. i wonder if leah's awake yet, or has found my note. i run a few lights, not bothering to slow down, i could care less. in no time, i reach my destination, the area empty and dry. it was dead, the plants and color of everything depressing.

no sign of him anywhere, me being early, i squat down. twirling my index finger above a small dead rose, it soon stops slouching. the stem goes straight as it shines; refills it's red color while the petals begin to grow quickly, i smile giving it's life back.

leah's pov

i look around his bedroom for the millionth time, from inside out, top to bottom. i refused to believe he just got up and left, i know he wouldn't do that to me. maybe there were matters in hell that needed to be taken care of? he wouldn't pick up the spare phone i had from a few years back that i've given him to stay in touch. looking at his desk, a lamp illuminated a sheet of paper that had writing on it.

moving closer, i pick it up. what's this?

leah

hello, my love. if you're reading this, it's probably too late for you to do anything now. there's something i didn't tell you earlier from yesterday. i'm dying, leah. alex , your adoptive father, was right.

no other species besides guardians and you, can survive on this planet. i knew there wasn't any hope for me, but for you, there had to be. i couldn't leave without knowing you'll be safe when i'm gone. so i made a deal with him, he'll be taking my soul to spare yours. he'll vow to keep you guarded for all eternity, which i agreed to.

you don't deserve to die, leah, god you don't. before i met you, i didn't think love was anything but a simple word that humans threw around to make a promise that they couldn't keep. but you... you, my darling, have changed me for the better. i wanna thank you for existing, for taking that run outside your house. for making it so easy to find you, and fall for you.

you are the light in my darkness. you are my sunshine when skies are gray. i'll miss how messy your hair gets when you wake up beside me in the morning. i'll miss the way your nose crinkles up when you can't stop laughing. i'll most of all miss your beautiful smile that never fails to kickstart my heart... now i think it's time i let you go, and it's so fucking hard to do because i will love you until i take my last breath.

and if i end up in some other place than hell or heaven, i'll continue loving you there as well. don't let me stop you from finding another, i promise you will be happy again. be brave enough to say goodbye so life will reward you with a new hello. even if we can't be together in the end, i am forever grateful that you were apart of my life. this story isn't finished, and i'm counting on you to continue reading it.

goodbye, leah boran. i'll always love you.

forever.

shawn

i look down at my hands, to find myself shaking uncontrollably. my wrist covered in salty tears, looking outside his window. my heart aches to see him, my soul longing for his presence. i need to find him, this can't be the end. wait!

taking my phone out my pocket, i open my find my iphone app. in a few seconds i wait for the results to show up.

"c'mon, c'mon, c'mon..."

biting my lower lip aggressively, my anxiety on edge. seeing my old phone pop up on the screen, i almost scream out in joy. i'm coming for you, shawn.