The Adventures Of Phan

The start of an adventure

I was sitting behind my desk. I felt the tears well up in my eyes . After Our last adventure in Australia, I found out just exactly how cruel people could be. How nasty and inconsiderate real humans actually were. I stared at a picture of a polar bear. A magnificent beast who would not hesitate to kill me but at least it would be quick. Not a overlong conspiracy of many years, just to be unleashed on me when I was at my weakest and darkest moment. When I needed my friends the most.

But there had been one tiny ray of light in this hole . I remembered fondly the day I discovered it. It was a cold Tuesday morning to what I remember. The memories surfaced before my mind's eye and took the most wonderful shapes. Before I well knew it, a single tear welled up in my eyes and trickled down my cheek. Because even when all my so called friends that I had betrayed me there
was one consistant factor in my life. His name was Casper lee.

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I knew that the rising aspirations between them could never become true, the feelings I had for Casper were the only thing in this world that still felt true to him. No lies, just that single, pure sense and feeling for the South African boy. I thought to meself hopelessly. Why must they battle? Why must I be destined to destroy Casper Lee? Can I ever tell Casper how much he truly means to me?

If only I could. Then all my pain would be over. No more betrayal. No more suffering under the laughter from Louise (who told him she loved me, only to stab me right in the heart on valentines day!). No, only Casper and my true feelings for Him.