breathe // jack maynard

five

Bella's POV

"Jack." I cried to myself.

I sniffled profusely as I walked closer to his hospital bed. It broke my heart seeing him in bruises & cuts and bandages. I wiped my tears with one hand and I held his hand in another as I sat by his bed.

"What happened?" I asked. I knew he couldn't answer me, but I asked anyway. "Wake up babe, why are you unconscious?" I asked as the tears continued to flow.

I turned around as I felt someone's hand on my shoulder.

"He's gonna be okay. He always does in the end." Joe comforted me as he pulled a chair & took a seat beside me.

"Joe he got into a fucking accident! I don't even know what the fuck happened & how but he did and look at him!" I emphasised as I cried even harder than I did before. Having to come to realisation & admitting it hit me a thousand times harder.

"He's gonna be okay, Bella." He comforted once again.

"Where is everyone else?" I changed the subject as I didn't know how else to argue, or if I should anymore.

"They'll be here soon. Caspar & Josh are both down getting food for all of us. Connor, Oli & Mikey are talking to the doctor to get more details about Jack's accident."

I stood up to go to the washroom. I couldn't take it. I can't stay here. Seeing Jack like this makes me hate myself. Because I wasn't there. He must've been in so much pain. He must've been so scared. My heart broke with all those thoughts coming into my mind.

"Where are you going?" Joe asked as he stood up.

"Out of here," I replied with a hoarse voice, "I can't stay here. It hurts too much." I admitted.

Joe's hand grabbed ahold of my wrist and pulled me closer towards him, & then into a hug. I immediately broke into tears as soon as he wrapped his arms around my now so vulnerable & weak little body. I was breaking. I was breaking so bad, I was breaking so much. I feel like my whole world is falling apart.

"I'm so scared." I said in between tears and hiccups. Joe started to rub circles with his hand on the lower of my back.

"Bella, he's going to be okay. He's strong, you know that."

I cried even harder at that because I don't know how long more does Jack have to be strong. I don't know when will be the end of it for him. He's unconscious now, when will he wake up? What if he never does? What if i never get to confess my feelings for him? What if i never get to know how he feels about me too?

"He needs you now. He needs you now more than he has ever needed you his entire life & you know how needy he is of you. He's in pain. He's hurting. He's scared & he feels alone. You cannot walk out on him and leave him now. Not now Bella."

"I wasn't going to walk out on him and leave him, Joe. I just wanted some fresh air." I said as I laughed lightly at the fact that Joe thought I would ever leave Jack. I would never leave Jack. Unless he ever tells me to.

"Good because I thought you were. You scared the hell out of me." He said as he laughed in return too.

"That's impossible."

"I'm going to the washroom." I said as I adjusted my shirt.

I pushed open the door and walked in the direction of the cafeteria. I sat down at the lobby's waiting area. I didn't really need to go to the washroom. I just needed time alone to process everything.

"Bella? What are you doing here?" I turned immediately as soon as I heard his voice. The voice that once brought fear & comfort. The voice that brought waves and thunderstorms all at once.

"Mark.."

He sat down beside me as his arms snaked around my shoulders & I flinched.

His violent arms once felt so safe. But not anymore.

"What are you doing here?" He repeated

"I uh.. Jack's got into an accident" i said as I got choked up on my words

"What? What happened?" He asked. He looked like he was genuinely concerned. Maybe he is.

"I.. i.. i uh.. I don't.. I don't know" I stuttered.

"Which room is he in?" He asked as he stood up.

"475" i said as I stood up too. I rested my hands in the back pocket of my jeans. Before I know, we were both headed to Jack's room.