I love you Phil | Phanfic | contains a lot of smut

Feelings

Dan's POV

I can't take it anymore I have to tell him sometime but if he doesn't feel the same way it will affect our friendship so much we might not even be friends. I love him so much. the only way I can handle this is shutting him out yeah that will work. Just then I hear a knock on my door
"Dan! We're going to be late come on "Phil said anxiously.
" go without me phil, tell them I got sick or something" I said.
" I'm not going without you are you having an existential crisis do you need me to help you deal with it I'm coming in" said Phil
Suddenly my door starts to open and I see him standing in my doorway gosh he is so beautiful. I love him so much you just don't know how to tell him. He comes and sits down on my bed and without warning flops down so that we are staring into each other's eyes. I turned over to face the other direction. I can't look into his eyes that makes me just want to kiss him. All of a sudden he brought his big arms around me and give me a tight squeeze.
"What's wrong?" Phil asks. He looks kind of worried about me I don't want to be rude and tell him to just go away. he sits up I turn my body to face his back.
"Fine I will go without you" Phil said
His words were empty he was disappointed he left my room and I continue to ponder what just happened. Am I really going to shut Phil out of my life. Tears start streaming down my face. Just then Phil comes back in looking for his phone and sees me crying. He sits next to me and wraps me in another big hug.
" I knew something was wrong why don't you just tell me something is clearly troubling it'd be a lot easier if you just told me and I can sort this out with you"he says. He wipes my eyes with his sleeve and looks into my eyes
"I care about you and what's going on your life you're my best friend pretty sure you feel the same way" he said I still have not said a word this whole talk is making everything worse Tears are Falling faster down my face making matters worse Phil looks completely concerned.
" I'm fine " I lied he could see right through my lies.
" stop lying to me tell me the truth"
" that is the truth"
" I know when you're lying Dan you can't fool me" he had me defeated but I can't tell him yet. I'm not ready to tell him yet
"GET OUT!!"
"Wha-"
" just get out of the house and go hang out with your friends I don't need your help I need to deal with my problems on my own. You don't need to worry about me right now.!"
Phil look taken back I kind of just got so angry at him why did I do that I'm such an idiot there was a tear forming and Phil's eye. I hurt him.
"Phil.....I'm sorry"
He blinked and the tear rolled down his cheek. I wrapped him in a hug. I didn't mean to hurt him.
"I-ts.... Fi-ne" he sniffled. I squeezed him tighter.
"I didn't mean to yell it's just I feel it's something I need to work out on my own, I have kinda just been stressed out" I said Phil gives me a wierd grin and starts singing stressed out. We both start laughing uncontrollably.
"You're such a nerd" I said still laughing. I looked at his face I wanted to push him down and make out with him. No. Stop. You can't do this your going to start crying again.
"We anyways I am going to watch anime in the lounge wanna come?" he said hopefully . I quickly said yes and followed him to the lounge. I love you Phillip lester, and maybe one day you will know just how much I love you.

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This is my first Phanfic it's going to be a long one probably about a hundred or so chapters I can guarantee you there will be over 75 chapters so be ready for that I'm hoping to post everyday depending on my schedule.
I hope you like my story oh my God