Captivity (Book 5)

New Start

                  The next morning, I woke up feeling the most wonderful feeling in the world. I slept amazing, not having the luxury of a soft bed except when I was being taken advantage of, which I wasn't focusing on at the time. It was maybe an hour of being up and alone that I started to feel the pain of my past. I was sitting on the couch, the TV on, but I wasn't watching it. Tears filled my eyes realizing everything that had happened to me over the past five years. Being "free" I had time to really absorb it. What they did to me was torture. How was I supposed to try and live a normal life when they are still watching my every move?


             I couldn't talk to anyone about this or they would take me back to home base. But how could I live with this eating me up inside? To take my mind off of my life, I started to clean, not that the house really needed it, but it would keep me busy. I was afraid to go outside, not being exposed to the sun in so many years had to have some effect. I was so used to being locked inside the house, part of me was scared I'd get punished if I left the house, despite being told I could leave.

               It was about two in the afternoon, after lunch when I decided to venture outside for the first time. Despite the thousands of trees surrounding me, it was extremely sunny out. I opened the front door, stepping out onto the wrap around porch. The warm air hit me like a freight train, painfully and all at once. My body had gotten used to the cold that it wasn't used to this heat. My hands trembled slightly, not knowing what to expect being outside.

              One by one I left the comfort of the porch and onto the grass. The sunlight shined through the trees, hitting my delicate, porcelain skin. My eyes started stinging from the bright light. I quickly covered them, knowing this would most likely happen after not seeing the sunlight in five years. I stared at the ground, letting my eyes adjust to the burning sun. Another problem I started to experience was that my skin started to throb. I ran back onto the porch, out of the sunlight. My skin started to get sunburn within a few minutes of being outside from such a light pigment in my skin that I'd developed. I'd have to get sunscreen and slowly adjust myself to the sun. Just another reason to hate Kayden and Russell.

             I walked over to a rocking chair on the porch, deciding the fresh air would be good for, even if it wasn't in the sun. I pulled out my new cell phone, deciding to play around with it. I couldn't use any of my social media accounts now. There were a few games that were on it that I decided to master since I had plenty of time. Once the games got boring to play after several hours, I decided to play around with the settings on my phone, trying to make it more like me. I checked the news online, seeing what was currently happening in the world.

            I found myself in my contacts looking at Russell's and Kayden's name. I was tempted to text one of them, the loneliness hitting me harder and harder every second. At least when I was locked up, I'd see them for meals and so forth, not I have no one. I knew it was stupid, I shouldn't want their company, yet who else would I have? I couldn't go into town to meet people due to the sunlight burning me and I didn't want anyone I met to be in danger by Kayden. Humans needed social interactions in their life or they would go crazy. I had learn that in my psychology class before I was abducted. There was several studies showing the negative affects of solitary confinement or lack of social interactions with others. Who's to say that I'm not already crazy? I mean I want to call my kidnappers and rapists to talk, what was I thinking?

             Around six o'clock I started to make dinner, spaghetti since it was simple. I wanted leftovers so I made extra, knowing tomorrow I would want to cook if I decided to go outside again. It drained all the energy in my body. I barely wanted to make spaghetti and there's nothing hard about making it. I had just sat down to eat when the front door opened up, causing me to almost fall out of my seat. Kayden and Russell walked into the house, closing the door behind them. I had forgotten that they said they would stop by today and check on me.