Behind The Eyes Of A Killer

STOP THINKING

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'I'M SORRY.

I LOVED THEM.

IT WAS AN ACCIDENT.

I GOT OUT OF HAND.

I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT I WAS THINKING.

I WAS BROKEN.

I DIDN'T MEAN TO KILL THEM.'

I kept repeating those words in my head after I killed my husband, then my son, and finally my daughter. I swore to myself I wouldn't do any of that again. Kill.

I could remember the first day I met Greg,
He was
looking at me and I saw his eyes shimmer in the light and then when he looked away. Those beautiful blue eyes simmered like a diamond in the moonlight, I didn't know why but I always did fall for the ones that didn't care for me back.. But Greg, Greg was different... To me.

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"YOU ARE A DISGUSTING HUMAN BEING." Detective Chang didn't seem to like the idea of me killing, but if a man can do it good then a woman can do it better.

"Chang, you should try being a killer, you have the potential to be one. Angry, insane and difficult. You-"

"AVA. STOP YOU NEED TO STOP. CHANG HAS BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH. YOU KILLED HIS WIFE. AND YOU DID IT THE MOST BRUTAL WAY YOU COULD HAVE DONE IT." Detective Jules, was starting to go from good cop to bad cop slowly but surely..

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He punched me in the face and tried to run but he was so fatigued that he couldn't run very fast, I caught up to him and took my dull knife and made sure he felt the pain, it didn't kill him right away. And that was when Jax came home.. From his friends house.. He didn't realise what I did because he walked right past me with his headphones on and his music blasting.

I then took my dull knife and-

STOP IT. STOP IT. STOP IT. STOP IT. STOP IT. STOP IT. STOP IT.

I need to STOP THINKING.

I felt a warm liquid running down my face, tears.

I was wishing I could turn back time. Turn back time to when I was stable. When I knew what to do with my life other than kill..

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