Behind The Eyes Of A Killer

FAMILY IS FAMILY

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WHERE DID THEY GO!? The second I have my family back they're gone. I don't know what to believe anymore, my nightmares about murdering people or the day dream about my family being alive. Is this real? Or is this just a fantasy too? People say when you die you have 7 minutes of brain activity left and that seven minutes are long enough for you to see your whole life flash before your eyes... Is that what just happened?? Is that why everything and everyone is gone? I feel like I'm in a box and I haven't seen the real world in forever, was I even real? Maybe this is just another nightmare. Maybe I'm just lost in reality...

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"Hello?" I hope there is at least one helpful soul around here...
"Ava... Hello." That was a familiar voice.... A familiar, face.
"Mom...?"
"Yes, dear." no, no, NO. Impossible! My mother died when I was 8, she got cancer in her right leg and she didn't find out until she was too late to be saved..
"Mom am I dead..?"
"Ava if I am here then..."
"How did I die?"
"I don't know, and neither should you.."
"Mom please! If you know anything tell me!" I needed to know. Even if she only knew one thing then that was good enough for me..
"Ava, I'm kidding. You're alive just having a day dream."
"How do I get back to my family?"
"Fix yourself.."
"Mom, what is that-" she was gone. All she said was to fix myself. What is that supposed to mean...?

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I see someone else... It looks like a, child.. Emily?

Emily was my childhood best friend, she sadly died when she was 13, she got hit by a car on the way to school and didn't make it to the hospital. She had blue eyes, strawberry blond hair and she was very tall. She had a very good sense of humor and she always knew how to make you laugh.. I watched her die. It hurts me everyday knowing that I couldn't have saved her. But I always felt as if I could have.. I could have kept her alive..
"Ava? Is that you? Wow you did grow up to be beautiful.. Just like how we used to talk about all those years ago.."
"Emily? Can you help me find myself? Please I need to get back to my family.."
"I can't." I felt tears in my eyes when she said she couldn't.. I didn't know what to say...
"Why can't you!? Is it because I let you die!?"
"Ava, you didn't let me die, it was my time to go.. Not everyone is meant to stay on earth as long as everyone else.."
"It wasn't your time though Emily! You wernt supposed to leave me.." I felt warm tears down my face, and then felt Emily swipe them away.
"You can't blame yourself for things you didn't do. You can't prevent everything.."
"Emily-"
"Save it. Take this and get back to your family. I love you Ava. You are my best friend and my sister. Be sure to tell your kids about me. Their Aunty Em.. Ha that sounds good"
"Thank you." Emily handed me a folded up note and once I opened it Emily looked at me with tears in her eyes and said,
"Wait for me, Ava."

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