Imaginary (Niam, Ziall, Ziam, Larry fanfic)

Part 19

Niall

At first there was just darkness. He didn't know where he was or what was going to happen to him. Liam's words just played over and over in his head like a song on repeat. Liam didn't want him anymore. He was an abandoned guardian angel. Niall didn't know what this meant. Was he going to be turned into a demon? Or maybe he was going to be assigned to a new kid. Either way he feared he'd never see Liam or Zayn again. He didn't think before he'd care at all about seeing Zayn again but now his heart felt just as warm when he thought about Zayn as he did Liam, even if Liam didn't want him anymore.

Niall realized just how big of a mess this was turning into. He really couldn't pick between either of them. He had made separate lives and memories with both of them for many years. He remembered all those memories now that he had spent with Zayn. It was like a fog was cleared from a section of his brain and there they all were waiting to be remembered.

Suddenly the darkness was beginning to become lighter and the ground under him actually had texture to it. It felt like he was sitting on grass. He looked around and realized he was in a cemetery. Though he thought for a moment and realized he had been here before. This was the cemetery in his hometown back in Ireland that his grandparents were buried at. He remembered his parents use to take him and have him and his brother put flowers on their graves on their birthdays. Niall didn't even know he possessed this memory till it was playing like a movie in his head.

He stood up and began taking in his surroundings. He noticed he had landed on where a grave was and looked at the headstone to whom it belonged too. He was a little shocked to find his own name on the headstone. Before he got his memories back Niall didn't really think about being dead that much because he couldn't remember anything or anyone he left behind. He just lived for the moment and with Liam because that's all he had to go off of. Now seeing his grave for the first time and being able to remember his family it felt like he had been hit by a truck. He knelt down on the grass and ran his fingers over the tombstone. He looked to the tombstone to the right of his and saw his grandfather's name and his grandma's to the right of that. After he died his parents must have taken his body back to Ireland to be buried with the family.

He stood up again and wondered why he had been taken here. The cemetery was pretty small in size. He didn't see anyone else in it so he began walking to the path that led to the exit. He could easily just fly back to London in a short amount of time he thought. He made his way down the path to the entrance where two big angel statues stood. He continued to approach the entrance but when he reached the statues a force pushed him back and he fell on his bum. A little frightened, he got up and hesitantly approached the statues again and he was once again pushed back. He then tried to take a running leap towards it. That time he fell on his face had to spit rocks out of his mouth.

Then it dawned on him, abandoned angels must be stuck at their resting place. That's why he's back here where he's buried. He can't leave here. Niall let that sink in for a moment. There was no one else here and he didn't know if Liam or Zayn would come looking for him and if they did how to find him. Niall deep down hoped at least Zayn was looking for him again since he had been all that time before he found Niall. He hoped that Liam was looking for him or at least regretted that he had wished him away, but Niall honestly didn't know how Liam felt anymore. Maybe he was happy now that Niall was gone and he could go on living a normal life. Thinking that brought tears to Niall's eyes. He didn't want to think about Liam moving on especially with someone else. They spent eighteen years together building a friendship that turned into a relationship. He didn't want to go and throw that all away now.
Niall didn't know what to do so he walked back to where his grave site was. He sat back down on the grass next to where all his family was buried and began to weep. He stayed like that until the sun was fully down and it was completely dark around him.

He didn't look up again till his head began to start hurting with a piercing pain. Then all he could see was the vision he had seen so many times before with Liam ending his life. This time Niall knew something was different. He felt like his head was going to exploded from the pain. His whole body began to hurt like he was getting something ripped out of him. Then it all stopped and he was left withering around on the grass, one hand clutching his head while the other clutched his stomach. Something was wrong he thought.

Niall realized that he had failed his mission. Liam killed himself and he wasn't there to stop him. If anything, he was probably the one that led him to do it. Niall felt broken in his head and in his heart. It was only a matter of time before he'd be falling through the solid Earth into the fires of hell to receive his black wings. Nothing would make him forget the pain. Every other angel would now see him and no he failed.

Then Niall realized there was hope. If he got out of here he could do like Zayn did and search the Earth until he found Liam again. And as Niall and Zayn discovered all he has to do is get Liam to kiss him and he'd remember everything. This was not the end he thought over and over again. He just had to get out of here.