I lye in bed and text some of my friends when the darkness begins to creep out like shadows of a dark alleyway in the heart of a big city as the sun sets. I at first pay it no mind continuing to text my friends as it creeps closer and I start to feel my chest tighten and my heart race. What is this feeling that has surrounded me I wonder and then I realize. This is the dark abyss of loneliness that I'm feeling. Though I'm surrounded by my friends the loneliness continues to slinks forward into my personal space. Then suddenly and spontaneously it jumps on my filling my heart and soul with this feeling of emptiness and the craving for attention. Like a thirst that I can't quench and it eats away at me for the rest of my life. Slowly I feel it consume me and take over my actions and emotions. I become more depressed and less frequently online with my friends. Eventually altogether I disappear and the loneliness consumes me fully I'm trapped inside screaming for help. I see through my eyes I begin to walk to the kitchen pulling a knife and then I lose consciousness. When I awake I'm sitting in my bathtub and my wrists are slit as the life drains out of me I feel light headed but I'm smiling. For some reason I feel so happy and more alive than I've ever been that's when it all fades to black and I'm gone.
