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"…What…?"

"Didn't you say that you love ME? Why are you all lovey dovey with Mia now?!" He slammed his arm against he wall again in frustration which threw me off the edge. How dare he have a pissed off tone with me?! He was the one who rejected me but now he wants all in on my business?! "Why does it even matter to you? Yes, I did say that I love you, but you don't feel the same! Why should I have to cry alone when Mia has had his arms opened to me all this while?! Why should I keep waiting for the impossible?!" I finally got to spit my anger at him. The pain I felt. The sadness. There Tsuzuku, proof that you fucked up my heart! You happy?!

His eyes widen with shock but quickly changed the second after. His gaze soften and gave me a pitiful smile, his tone from loud and assertive to a calming soft one. "Well, I didn't exactly say no, did I?"

"Huh…?"

He shifts his right hand from the wall to my chin, tilting my head upwards and forces his lips onto mine. He parted my lips from a tiny gap and slithered his tongue in and immediately searched for mine. It felt so different compared to Mia's. His tongue wrapped around mine, traping it. My knees were getting weak and our bodies was slowly bending and sliding down while he kept my head up. I could hear someone calling my name faintly but this feeling was so intriguing, I just brushed it off. The voice kept calling and I knew it was Mia. He would be so devastated if he found out. I felt terrible for not only ignoring him, but ignoring to cheat on him. My body was burning up and I was quickly running out of breath. He parted our lips but he did not leave to nibble it a little before he moved back. "Go, he's looking for you. Meet me later, after I finish up. My place. Please. I want to explain everything to you."

I left the room and went to Mia only to see him smiling so brightly as his eyes locked with mine. He came over and held my hand almost automatically. "Babe~ where were you? I was looking everywhere…" Well, I feel like crap now. I can't believe I didn't stop it just now. "Ah sorry, I went to clear my mind. "Are you okay? You seem feverish." Yeah, Mia I'm fine. I just made out with my first love, behind your back. How can I tell him that SHIT?! "I'm fine… But why were you looking for me?" I quickly directed the attention away before he asks more. "I just wanted to ask you want you want for dinner~" Look at this man! He truly loves me and what did I just do to him?! "I can't… I going to meet a friend later. But you have a good rest okay?" I sealed the deal of how much of a bitch I was by lying straight out to him. He just agreed and told me to stay safe, making sure to plant a kiss on my forehead before leaving. I hung around a little longer after "my friend" left and went to meet him at his apartment.

I knocked on his door obviously agitated. He keeps toying with my heart why wouldn't I be?! The moment he opened the door I barged right in and crashed into his chair. "Speak. I'm in a hurry, Mia is waiting for me at home." He let out a sigh and sat opposite of me and began talking. "From the first day of our encounter, you reminded me of my younger self. It was like looking into a mirror." "What's your point?" I was just snapping at him like crazy and I didn't care if he couldn't take it. I'm with Mia now! God dammit!! "I took interest in you ever since I saw you. And as I got closer to you, I felt a strong urge to protect you. Not as redemption for my past, but your vigour inspired me, and I unknowingly fell for you…" he had his hand clamped together and was struggling to make eye contact with mine. As if I was not confused enough, now this. I carried on asking. "If you have felt the same all this while, then why did you push me away?" "I thought it was for the best. But… just seeing you with him…" I have never seen this unknown side of him. It's like his blushing but not really… "What? It shows that I'm worth something?" I was just being mean. My heart was leaning to him now but my brain says no! If I don't get pissed, I'll probably be head over heels for him again. "It made me angry! Like, if I have to sacrifice my love for what I thought was right, why does he get a pass?!" Is this what he truly thinks? So my feelings were not one-sided? Too much info, too little brain capacity, my blood rushed up there. "So you don't hate me?" That was all I could think at that moment, otherwise my brain would have shorts circuited.  "No! Never! Why would you even think that?!" He got up and kneeled in front of me, clutching my frozen stiff hands and continued in a calmed down tone that was so soothing. "I love you." I waited so long to hear that. And now that it's actually happening, I feel torn. My chest felt empty yet full, a hollow yet heavy feeling resides in there. I body was heating up but the air around me felt like dry ice. Why? I couldn't speak, my mouth was open but no sound came out. I want to say something, but what can I say? "I… But M-Mia… I'm with Mia now!" That's right! I'm with someone who loves me unconditionally now! "But do you really want to be with him? If you do, I won't stop you. It's my fault for letting you go before, after all." he gently brushed my hair through his fingers, gliding his forehand against my cheek.  I kept silent, not knowing what to say. His face moved closer to mine, landing a peck on my forehead, my cheek and lastly my lips.

His kisses were strong. Now that our feelings were knowingly mutual, he was pretty much unstoppable. It was forceful but I didn't mind. In fact, I wanted it. I returned his tongue with mine, stronger. I wasn't going to let him have all the fun. "Wait, there's something you need to know… After I left, I went over to Mia's and well…" I ended quiet so he finished it for me. "You guys fucked?" I simply nodded slowly as if I was guilty when I shouldn't have been. I've done nothing wrong, but Tsuzuku sure made me feel otherwise. "Was he good?" He asked again, this time I was able to answer… somewhat…"Wha-what the hell? Well, I um… he was my only encounter, so I can't really…" His hands grazed down my neck, round my thigh, slowly creeping between them. His finger caresses my underwear, causing a gush of pleasure flow through me. "So I'm second place?" The way he was asking all his questions were so nonchalant. He focused his slender fingers against me, expecting a respond, but I was too busy trying to hold my moans. "Tsu- ah!" my voice slipped and he seemed pretty contempt with that, a smirk grew and he lean in closer, barely any distance between us."Looks like I'll just have to show you how I do it~" And with those words, we had a long sleepless night. On his couch, kitchen counter, and the classic bed. It felt so wrong yet so right. I tried to resist. I really did.

I'm sorry, Mia.

*I am so sorry for not updating here. I had a block and went to start a one-shot instead ฅ(｡╥﹏╥｡)ฅ but I'm back! Hope you liked it and thank you for reading.*