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I Loved You!!

I woke up wrapped in his arms, our face only inches apart. I took a minute to study his sleeping face."The day I dreamt of has finally came… He's finally mine. But, why do I feel so dead?" I wondered to myself. I was so caught up in my thoughts I didn't notice that he had woken up. He pulled me in closer to him, whispering in my ear "Good morning you~" And just like that, with his voice, his words, my thoughts were buried. But the guilt only left for a moment. I got up and tried to occupy my mind with distractions. I made us breakfast while he got ready. He would plant occasional kisses on me making me blush. "You still shy even after what we did yesterday? Come on, we did so much more~ Why don't you try making that voice from yesterday?" He trailed his hands down to my hips as he exhaled on my neck. I knew what he wanted, and honestly I wanted it too, but the guilt crashed on my urges. I pushed him away and changed the subject. "Hey hey, slow down. Let's go before you're late."

We got out of the car in the luckily empty parking lot, since Tzuzuku was making a fool of himself. At first, he held my hand but I shock it off. He stared at my face probably hurt, but he had it coming. "We really can't go in together? I mean, we ARE official now..." "No. My decision is final. Be it in the apartment, in the car, and even here. "But you and Mia did..." he made a pouty face which looked weirdly cute on him. "It's not the same and you know why. Stop playing dumb." I felt bad for rejecting his every move since this morning, so I glanced around before I held his hand. "Only because no one's here…" He entwined his fingers in mine and he smiled. He was reluctant to let go once we reached our floor, and he acted like a kid again. We went into the studio room separately despite Tsuzuku's whining. Only Meto was in there, so it wasn't too awkward. "So how are you going to tell Mia? I know what you did." He confronted me after Tsuzuku went into the recording room. "I don't know… I don't want to hurt him." "Well, there's no safe road. Look, I agreed to support your chase for Tsuzuku, but not you toying Mia." He sounded so serious I was scared, and this is Meto we're talking about. "I'm sorry…" He patted my head and comforted me that he wasn't angry, but I doubt it. I kept thinking of a way to tell him but all of them had the same ending. Him hating me. Meto was right. There is no easy way. I can only clench my jaw and bear the pain. Minutes passed that seemed like hours. I knew I was going to have to tell Mia today. I knew that I would end up hurting him. Guilt was slowly eating me up inside.

One by one the staff entered the room. Mia arrived about an hour before Koichi, as usual. He noticed me the moment he pushed open the door, running up to me looking ever so concerned, probably because I didn't go back yesterday night. "Babe, you're here! I was worried sick." "Yeah, sorry for not calling you." He sat on the armrest of the couch next to me and ruffled my hair, stroking my cheek. "You're fine now. That's all that matters." I sat there alone while everyone did their thing, unknowingly drifting asleep.

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Surrounded by darkness, the end seemed eternal where ever I looked, never ending. I heard footsteps, getting louder by the second. I tried to turn my head but for some reason I can't. "Tsuzuku-san? Is that you?" I called out, hoping it was him, as he promised he would stay with me. "Mia-kun?" He stood in front of me, smiling ever so brightly. Why is it him? Where's Tsuzuku? The man I love so dearly? The man who supposedly treasures me so? "Why are you here? Where's Tsu- MIA! BEHIND YO-" His body collapses to the ground in front of me, with a quick glimpse of the culprit's face behind. "Tsuzuku?!" He held a metal bat I his arms, now tainted with blood. Mia's  body laid limp on the ground, frozen but jerked every time Tsuzuku would swing and crash his bat down on him.. A pool of blood formed, slowly trailing to my feet, I tried to look away, but it felt like someone was grabbing my head, forcing me to watch it all. "Tsuzuku, stop it. Why would you?! Why…?"
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"Babe. Babe, are you okay?" I jolted awake with someone jerking my body, calling me. "Mia… what's wrong?" My mind was still groggy but I could feel my heart thumping like crazy. "You looked like you were struggling a lot, so I was worried. You okay?" I just nodded, facing the mahogany floorboard. After that dream, I was too afraid, too embarrassed to even look at him. "I'm fine. Probably just tired." I was still pretty dizzy, so it took a while for my eyes to adjust to my surroundings. 10 minutes to 1 the wall clock said.  "Well, are you up for lunch? Just us~" "Ah, sure I guess…" After all that, I need food. He drove us to a nearby cafe where we got some pasta. I was pretty much starving, but I couldn't find it in me to have the appetite. I was poking it around only able to down half of it. I just made a joke and said that it was because the portions were huge. Whether or not he bought it, I don't know. We took a walk around the block after, he held my hand in his, our fingers entwined. I wanted to clutch his hand back I swear, but somehow it just couldn't happen. My fingers were weak in his hand as his voice echoed in my ear through the crowd.

We got back to the studio about an hour later and that's where it all went downhill. He parked his car and just as I about to reach for the door "Is something bothering you? You seem so distracted." I tried to play it cool, brush him off, but he kept pushing it. "(Y/N)-chan, I know you so you can't hide it from me. Something is bothering you. Let me help."

"Actually… I have something to tell you. And… it's pretty important."

He leaned in closer to me, paying full attention. My heart was racing like crazy! I opened my mouth but no words could come out. I was cold sweating so much, I felt like shitting bricks. After much time in my panic mode, I finally managed to speak out.

"Mia-kun, I… I'm with Tsuzuku now… The friend I was with yesterday was him… I'm sorry… I'm so sorr-"

I tried to explain myself, but every time I did, I was drowning in my own shit.

"Wait… You cheated on me? Is that why you have been acting weird today? You acting like you actually took interest in me?! What? You think I'm pitiful, that's why you accepted me?! Is that why?! Pity?!!"

"No... It's not like that. Mia-kun, I-"

"I loved you... I genuinely loved you, (Y/N)-chan. But you took me for a fool. A joke... God dammit, FUCK!!"

I tried to wipe his tears away, but as soon as my hand got near his face he just slapped it away, like it was disgusting. I don't blame him.

"Mia-kun... I'm sorry. I know what I did was wrong. And honestly I feel terrible about it! I didn't mean for it to turn out like this. For us! I had feelings for you too, Mia-kun. Feelings that I didn't have before! I love you! I still do, even NOW!! It's just that, I couldn't forget him, even after all you've done for me..."

He stopped crying, but his eyes looked bloodshot and dead. He weakly stared into mine, looking faint.

"Can I have one last request?"

"Anything."

I was so desperate to please him. To make things better. So I thought what's the worst that could happen? I agreed to him prior to his plead.

"One last day together. Before you leave me... won't force you to do anything you don't want to. I just need your company. I need you..."