U TURN(COMPLETED)

Chapter Twenty-Three

All jokes aside.

 This chapter will put you in a mood, and a mind set that you have never been in

So if you are ready to read because you feel like you are pretty good at handling your emotions, I'd read it, and if not I'd listen to some music while I read it. I put a song on the side for you to listen to, and it goes VERY well with this chapter.

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Cameron

       I was watching Rachel's lips move, but I didn't hear a damn thing she was saying to me. I really wasn't even listening to her. She was the last thing on my mind along with whatever else should have been important.

As a teacher I was suppose to be focused on my student, and the lesson plan ahead, but today I just gave them a couple worksheets to do. I told them to take there time. The bell rang, and as usual Rachel made her way to my classroom as the kids left. It was just across the hall, so she didn't have very far to walk.

I know she was about to ask me about Paige because she was genuinely concerned about her. Rachel was being really sweet about that whole thing, and she definitely knew how much I cared for PJ. I like Rachel a lot, but I know our relationship will not be much more serious than it is now. I realize that no matter how good she is too me, she does not have my heart, and probably won't ever have it.

                                         I had taken Paige to her dorm after she got her medication from the hospital. She was pumped up full of drugs, and Lincoln felt really bad about it. I really wanted to kick his ass because he could have kill her. The drug had been making its way through her so quickly because it was strong, and she was highly allergic to whatever he put in it.

I got Paige to her bed, and I was quiet because her room mate,Aimee, was asleep.

"You need anything before I go?" I whispered to her. It was dark, but I could still kinda see her eyes. "No, but thank you Cam." I smiled. I don't know what made me kiss her at the hospital. It was probably because I was afraid that I would have lost her. We hadn't been hanging out like we use to lately.

I was trying to focus on Rachel because I was trying to focus less on Paige.

I finally had gotten myself to get the concept that she was GAY, and that she liked women. The love, and affection I have for her will not ever get the chance to surface, and It didn't help that I was kissing her again now, and this time she returned it.

I felt her lips moving with mine...

I didn't want to stop to ask questions...maybe she would realize it was me, and not some chic like she always reminded me. I started to climb in bed with her, but she stopped me laughing. "Woah Cam." I was hard, and ready for her whenever she wanted it.

"Why did you kiss me back?" I asked  upon hearing her laugh. "I don't know. Maybe because you kissed me and I didn't want to leave you hanging." My heart hit the pit of my stomach. I didn't know what to say. "So you didn't feel anything? "No, you kiss good though. I'll give you that, but naw I didn't feel nothing."

I was pissed. How could she not feel anything.

"Why the fuck would you kiss me back!" I knew I wasn't being quiet, but I really didn't give a damn she gave me a slight bit of false hope. "Cam, calm down." I felt her touch my arm. I shook my head embarrassed. I got up and moved.

The whole purpose of me spending less time with her was so I could get over myself.

"Paige, I really like you." I told her. I had told her this already, and I really didn't expect for the response to be any different. She was quiet. "Well, don't kiss me. You know I don't flow that way. I'm sorry for kissing you back, but I was trying to make you feel better."