ALICE TRIPPED.

idk if I sound rude

Ok so I've noticed that whenever some people I know on social media (mainly wattpad really) get asked to list their 'best friends' for a tag or whatever that I am sometimes on that list even though I do not actually consider that person my 'best friend'?

Now a thing about me is just that I don't make friends easily. I just don't. It's not that I reject everyone that comes my way with an intention for friendship, I try to be as nice as possible really, I just don't open up easily.

If I'm not all buddy buddy with you from the second we meet its not because I dislike you, it's just that I'd want to actually learn more about the person I'm talking to, see if they're compatible and if I can trust them.

I don't really have 'friends' in that manner really?

I have 'people that I'm ok with', 'acquaintances', ranging from 'well that person is a thing' to 'I like them', and lastly 'bestest of friends'.

Rn the last category has only one person in it and that's ShortBirxd

She best birb

And I'm always kinda anxious to tell people that I don't consider them my best friend or a friend at that matter bc I fear that they will take it personally or think that I dislike them or just think I'm rude...

And I don't really care if they call me their 'good friend' as long as they know that we probably only talk like once a month or less.

And I don't take making friends and having friendships lightly because it's a serious thing and I kinda believe people should stop calling each other 'best friends for live' or whatever just after they met.

Friendships are relationships and they take time and effort. Depending on the people it could take more effort or less but it still does even if you don't realize it.

Time, effort, communication.

Again, I don't like being all buddy buddy at once. I'm a slow person, you need to ease me into it or I'll break or something.

But honestly I wouldn't know how to actually form a best friend bond bc the only one i have is with Shorty and i have no idea how that happened, like it just did? Idk?

Again I don't want to come off as rude, I'm sure you're a lovely person so pls don't be offended if I don't have bf talks with you instantly and if I don't tell you my secrets or some shit, bc I like never do that. (Shorty knows too much help)

I'm anxious that people will think I'm weird for putting such high stakes on friendship, but honestly I just think a lot of people are putting too low stakes on it.

Just because you're both 13 and like fairy tail doesn't mean you should instantly trust each other as if you share a blood bond or something.

Again, I don't care as what you classify me or if you do it at all but remember best friendshippery is supposed to be mutual so of I don't think of you as of my best friend you're kinda fucked. (Unless you're Seraph but then you're just weird)

We can still be good acquaintances tho.

I tried sugarcoating that I only have one frend

Did it work

Are you offended

I hope not

I have a weird friendship system idk what's wrong with me