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Sometimes...

Hey, Tof here with a late message. I'm probably gonna forget about this in the morning though, since I usually get sentimental at night.

I forget that sometimes, I need to tell someone my problems.
Because it's okay to be scared.
It's hard to show your emotions though when the people around you goes through much worse, it's hard to tell someone.
But when I do... a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. My whole body relaxes, and my heart stops.
Everything is calm. And I can't help but cry.
Cry that I am relieved from the pain, that I was actually able to tell someone.
But usually that someone... is a family member.
Because it's harder to tell a friend who is going through much worse than me, it's harder to express my emotions when the person standing in front of me needs someone to talk to to relieve their pain.
I am their someone.
I keep myself locked up tight, so that people will always see me as a happy person. Someone who will help them when they need it.
But like a leaky faucet, I sometimes leak out.
My tongue clicks explosions, ready to burn each of my friends. So I keep still, hoping that it'll be over.
Because that's not how I wanted to tell them.
I didn't want them to think it was all their fault for the things I've gone through, they already have to go through hatred, and I didn't want to add that to them.
But I did, because I kept it in too long.
And I still do.
It's a forever burning cycle.

... Yeah. This just got depressing.
I'm sorry that I wrote this. Like I said before, sentimental at night. I'll try to write another chapter of Vincent x Scott tomorrow, but I can't guarantee it. I haven't been feeling well so this might be the effects of it.
Anyways, good night. I'll try to be more happy for you guys ^^

P.S. If you have any problems, please tell me. I might not be able to solve your problems, but I'm a good listener. So if you're like me and just need someone to listen, then I can be your someone ^^