Light Up My World

Just Back Down

Sunday Marilyns 'bandmates' came over. They all had names they go by, Daisy Berkowitz, Olivia Newton Bundy, Zsa Zsa Speck and Marilyn Manson (obviously). They all seemed pretty strange, they all began on Marilyns laptop creating posters for the band. They were the exact thing my mum would hate, but I found them funny. The leaflets had little doodles on, but they made them dirty aswell. Marilyn passed me one of the less dirty ones that I couldn't help laugh and kiss him.

"I love you." I told him.

As I sat watching them working together I began thinking about when I was going to talk to Marilyn about the baby. I needed to soon but I couldn't find the right time. Have an abortion the voice in my head told me. I knew I wouldn't do that. I used to always listen to the voice in my head which points out what I thought was the right thing to do:

You're getting fat I go on a diet

Keep with him I ignore his abuse

Although each of the choices were wrong I still went by what it said. But I began to ignore it when I first saw Marilyn, I made my own choices. But the voice was growing louder in my head. So loud it felt asthough it wasn't in my head and it was someone speaking to me. I glanced around gripping Marilyns bedsheets.

"What's wrong Sam?" Marilyn noticed my discomfort.

"Nothing." I fake smiled, "Don't you need to do music if your in a band and handing out leaflets?"

"It all depends whether anyones interested in the first place." Marilyn shrugged.

"And what about genre and your style?" I asked, they turned to me looking blank, "You know, One Direction are pop and wear ordinary clothes, Motionless In White are Rock and wear black and dodgey haircuts, whats your style? You'll need something to stand out." 

"We're wanting crazy rock, like mad wierd outfits!" Marilyn burst out with excitement like a kid.

"Okay." I smiled.

As we were figuring out everything there was a knock on the door and Marilyns mum poked her head round the door. "Sam? The police are here to see you." She told me, her face was pale with fear. Marilyns mum was called Judy but I always called her Marilyns mum or Ms Warner.

I got up shaking suddenly, You've done something bad the voice in my head sneered as I walked slowly out the room without a word.

Once I was downstairs the police told me my mum wanted me home. I'd been ignoring her phone calls and her texts lately, she'd called the house a few times but I aways told her to back off. "Your mother could press charges on Mr and Mrs Warner for abduction also." The police warned. If my mum did that I'd be out running to my father as soon as I found out.

Remembering back to when I was in year 10 I remembered I could stop the police taking me. "Being under 18 I a viable to only have to come with you if I had an appropriate adult with me. Do you have one?" I asked reading the paper I remember looking at out from in my head.

"You're mother is in the car awaiting you." The police woman told me.

"Oh no way! She's not an appropriate adult!" I told them. By that time Marilyn had come downstairs wondering what all the fuss was about.

"Sam calm down." Marilyn told me holding my hand. "As I'm eighteen and in a relationship with Sam am I an appropriate adult?" Marilyn asked the police woman.

"You can be if Samantha McMatthews allows you to be." The police woman agreed noting down everything. 

"Yeah." I told her hold Marilyns hand tighter. 

In the police car I sat with Marilyn between me and mum. As soon as we got home and the police had gone mum told Marilyn, "Well it's been a long day, goodbye Brian."

"Mum no." I told her.

"No what Samantha. You can go to your room." Mum said.

"C'mon Marilyn." I held Marilyns hand and took him to my room.

With Marilyn lay ontop of me we made out on my bed, my legs were wrapped round his body and my hands were in his long black hair. Mum opened the door quickly, "For goodness sake Sam!" Mum groaned then walked back out the room.

"We gotta get to dad." I told Marilyn.

He agreed then carried on kissing me. I began to forget about my pregnancy and enjoy life more. The voice in my head was faint too. We slept together in my bed until early morning when I heard the postman post something. I got up from Marilyns grasp and ran downstairs to find my results lay in a brown envelope on the floor. I grabbed it then ran back upstairs where I jumped ontop of Marilyn opening the results. The one thing that stood out to me was a B+! Sure it wasn't an A* but who cares when I got a B+! Marilyn hugged me tightly a I squealed. We got up and dressed quickly to go to Marilyns house where he got his results in his Journalism which was an A. As soon as we both got the results I called my dad so we'd be driving to him on Monday afternoon. I made sure it was the afternoon because Monday morning at 9am was the scan. I'd made sure I was sleeping at Jordans house that night so we could go to the scan together. At Marilyns house he began packing allowing me to go home and pack aswell. I packed an overnight bag for going to Jordans house then life suitcases for going with dad. I left alot of my stuff because travelling we wouldn't have enough room. Once I'd got everything packed I knocked on Jasmines door to say goodbye.

"Where you going?" Jasmine asked when I told her I was leaving.

"I'm going travelling with dad." I told her walking into her sickly sweet room with her sat on her window seat reading.

"And with Marilyn I guess." She rolled her eyes when I nodded.

"Mum and I don't get on, you know that. I know I'm with Marilyn alot but you'll understand when you're older."

Just as I was walking out Jasmines room I got a text from Marilyn, I'm not goin, gotta sort band out but i'll drive u there if u still wanna go. If not thought we cud get an apartment. Up 2 u xx Anger bubbled when I read the text. All for a band that wouldn't get anywhere. I thought. Sat in my room I went on twitter and trending was #MarilynManson&TheSpookyKids I texted Marilyn back as soon as I read it, Cud get an apartment. Look wots trendin on twitter xx I got on my laptop and began looking for apartments in the Bolton area. They were really expensive but Marilyn and I could hopefully afford it.

Remembering I needed to go to Jordans I told her I'd be there by 5 and it was quarter to 5 at that point. I got changed quickly into black tights then blue fishnet tights ontop of them with shorts the threw on a hoodie, picked up my overnight bag and began running to Jordans house. I got there at 5:10 but Jordan was used to me being late. We went straight upstairs where we watched every Paranormal Activity back to back then searched for other horror films. By 4am we'd watched, Paranormal Actvity back to back, The Conjuring, The Black Swan, The Woman In Black and other horror films until we fell asleep.

I awoke at 7am then woke Jordan before catching the bus to the hospital where we got to the scan on time. I pulled up my top where the nurse applied jelly on my tummy. She moved the scan stick thing around my stomach then said, "Congratulations, you're pregnant." She smiled.