So over it

First Time In Trouble.(4)

Right now this second I'm waiting for my dad to come pick me up. See in first period my teacher Mrs. Young called me up to read from the book and I said I don't want to she than told me I had to or I would get a zero so I replied " then I guess I'm getting a zero for today can you leave me alone now?! " so yeah she told me to go to the front office and so I did when I get there they ask why was I rude to Mrs. Young I just kept quit because I really did not feel like getting in more trouble. I did anyway though they called my dad.

"Your mom is here"

'' my mom?''

''yes , hello Mrs. Samantha your daughter is right over here in my office"

"Samantha , why are you here and she IS NOT MY MOM''

'' its ok hon, I don't mind being called your mom"

'' But your not my mom''

''Vanessa , I know I'm not your mom sweetie''

''STOP CALLING ME SWEETINE AND HON IM NOT YOUR DAUGHTER AND YOUR NOT MY MOM AND YOU NEVER WILL BE''

'' Vanessa it is time to go''

'' whatever ''

I wanted my dad to get me if he would have came none of this would have happen. I shouldn't feel bad about going off on Samantha should i ? Than i started thinking why didn't dad come get me why Samantha where was my dad.

'' Where is dad''

'' At work''

'' dad got a job'

''yes , he did''

Now all I can think Is why didn't he tell me ? Why not tell me and does Ariel know am I the only one who didn't know and if so why a not.

'' I'm sorry ''

'' its ok I'm sorry for always calling you hon and sweetie ''

'' its not that its more so that you want me to call you mom''

''I just want you to know its ok for you to call me mom''

'' but your not my mom''

'' I know and I'm not trying to replace her I swear''

'' it just feels like ever sense you came along no one talks about her because it is rude to you ''

'' I'm sorry, I know it feels like I'm trying to steel your dad from you but I'm not''

'' its ok I know your not''

maybe she wasn't as bad as I thought she was. Maybe I just judge her to fast.

Maybe I should give her another chance. You know what I am, not because I should but because mom would want me to. So I talked to my dad and he was a bit upset that I went off on Samantha he told me the same thing everyone tells me

'' she is not trying to replace your mom ''

I just wish everyone would stop telling me that I know ok I know. All I know is mom would want me to give her a chance because mom was a good person I hope to grow up to be like her. Dad doesn't really talk about her much I don't know why its not like talking about her is bad but that's what he makes it seem like. One time he caught Ariel and I talking about how she looks but he got mad and told us not to talk about her and gave us an upset look. Ever scene then me and Ariel don't say anything about her. Even if we did I don't think I could without crying it feels like I know she is gone but the pain will never leave I think that's the hardest part about loosing someone you love the fact that there gone . . . forever. That there is nothing you can do about it not ever. Its the hardest thing when I have a question most can ask there mothers about but I'm just left to wonder about the answer that I know will never come from the only person I want it to.