So over it

Fisrt Day. First Crush(2)

so , its my first day and I'm already off to a bad start see look when I got my schedule the lady was really mean but not like intentionally more like she was just having a bad day and was not in the mood to be bothered by the new kid with no idea were anything was and , with questions. So I understand I guess. Then my first period teacher was really nice so that's one good thing I guess. she was one of those people who is always smiling I can tell you right know that's going to get annoying. My other teachers where like all other teachers there is the cool one , the one who is dumber that the class , the pregnant one , the one who always has a story to tell , the one who is always eating , I have him before lunch so yeah that sucks , and the one who is a total jack ass and doesn't do shit. so yeah those are my teachers and I really want to go back to school tomorrow.

Not because I have to or because Samantha tells me to because my mom always told us " school is a privilege to an education that not everyone has so we should be proud to go to school not upset". And now that she is gone its all I can do to honor her memory and maybe just maybe I will get to see my dad the way he was before this all happened. Ariel is happy about going to a new school she says " because no one will know who Vanessa is so no one can compare me to her'" that is just a glimpse into my brat of a little sister mind I guess. She can be nice but its usually only when she wants something and the sad thing is it works too. Samantha is always telling dad that its "ok" or " just let it be honey" and " that's just the way they act at that age" but that's all Bill shit and I'm the only one who sees it. Its ok I mite have forgotten a small detail about today. So, there is this kid named Zach and he is really cute but see the thing is he most likely only knows me as the new kid if that. He is in my forth and seventh class periods. He is always getting in trouble I know I've been at that school for one day but he got in trouble twice in forth and three times in seventh period.

He has blond hair with somewhat of a fringe covering his right eye. His eyes were made by angels there green with little golden flakes in them and his jawline was sharper than a kitchen knife. I'm getting carried away sorry its just you know that feeling you get when you see a cute guy on t.v and you just know you cant have him, that he will never be yours. That's the feeling Zach gives me and I mean just his name Zach its so I don't know perfect it rolls off the tongue Zach and Vanessa see how good that sounds.

I know he doesn't like me though I mean why would he I don't have a good body or a pretty laugh or cute sneeze like most of the girls at this over done drama filled school. I guess I wish life was like a movie but its not and if it was it would be a sad movie because were there is life there is death , where there is love there is hate , where there are friends there are also enemies and that's life the thing is its not how it happens its more so when. I know that there is always good with bad and you have to accept it all not just the good. And I do, I understand that what happens dose happen for a reason. I had to learn that three years ago when my mom died. And for some reason I feel like everything around me changed including me. I changed my attitude I don't get along with the same type of people I called my friends back then now for some reason I cant stand them. Zach is the type of person that I would usually hate but for some reason I feel drawn to him like a moth to a flame a really really hot flame. I feel like he has a story but no one but him knows it maybe that's why I like him. Or maybe he is just as bad as he seems and has no story or other side like I want him to. maybe I'm making this all up in my head and none of what I just said is him at all.