So over it

First Relasation (5)

The thing I miss the most is having her paint my toenails and hearing her sing when she braided my hair. Walking in the kitchen and seeing her doing the dishes and cleaning the counter. I can still see my dads face when he answered the phone and his face dropped and I knew something was wrong when he began to cry I never saw my dad cry before that night. I remember having to take Ariel outside and lie that everything was ok even though I knew it was all wrong and nothing would be the same after that phone call. Nothing would be I was different so was dad and Ariel. I lost all my friends and my best friend was the only one who stayed and I had to be the one to leave. Its ok I have new friends now and I can tell their the good ones that wont leave me. School was hell at my old school but know that i have good friends school isn't really that bad Jordan grew up with out her mom she left her dad and her when Jordan was 4. She says she really doesn't remember her anyway so its not that bad plus her dad is great so she doesn't care. Max is in foster care he never knew his mom or dad and he got lucky with foster parents over the years he says he is glad he meet Jordan because he doesn't know what he would do without her. I'm just glad I met them there really are amazing. Do you ever have that moment where you wonder what life would be like if you were living someone else's life like what would happen if you meet you but through someone else's eyes like what would you think of you. I feel like I do that a lot but maybe we all do or maybe I'm just crazy and I sound insane. My mom was the same way she always said things that sounded crazy but it also made scene in some weird way maybe I understand her because I'm her daughter . . . was her daughter I guess I'm not anymore am I. Max told me
"its ok to be sad or mad because that's what makes us human''
Max has been through hell and he always has a big smile on his face and not one that gets annoying over time. I'm glad that I made friends like Max and Jordan they really are the best.