The One That Got Away (On Going on my Dreame Account)

VIII - Cure

Year 2010

Daniel

"Tara J, sayaw tayo. Ganda ng tugtog o." aya sa akin ni Joshua. Kasama niya si Trina na hinihila na rin siya sa dancefloor. Masyadong malakas ang tugtog kaya halos sumigaw na siya.

I checked my watch. Mag hahating gabi na. Paalis na rin kame in a while.

I should be looking for Chandria already.

I should be doing it tonight. Hindi ko na kayang patagalin pa to.

I need to talk to her. Nagpaalam siya sa akin kanina na mag babanyo lang. She should be back already. I checked the entrance but no signs of her. Sabagay ang tagal talaga nun pag nag babanyo. Paano kasi mag reretouch pa.

Bumuga ako ng hangin as I checked the time-- time and time again. I had countless thoughts over and over again but I still end up with a decision.

"Bro..." tinapik ako ni Robi sa balikat.

"O? Ano alis na tayo?"

"Yeah. Inaantay ko lang sina Khalil. May inaayos lang sandali. Sabay na tayo sa kotse or..." he trailed.

"Ahh...can we be excused sandali? Kahit mga isang oras lang." by we he understood that it was me and Chandria I was talking about.

Matagal bago siya nagbigay ng sagot sa akin.
Kumunot pa ang noo niya na tinitignan ako. Finally he shook his head put of disbelief.

"Are you really doing it tonight? I mean... come on Dj, it's prom night at masaya siya because she became prom queen...bakit ngayon pa?" my bestfriend questioned me.

"Pare, alam mo naman that this day doesn't have anything to do with my decision. This has been long time coming. I just need to...end it." iling ko. I know it's such a bizarre way to do it in such a happy time pero I don't think any other day will make a difference. A truth is still the truth any day, a heartbreak will still hurt no matter how slow or fast you break them. There's no point of finding the perfect time.

Panay ang tikhim at buntong hinga ko. Niluwag ko ang suot kong kurbata at tinaas ng bahagya ang sleeves ko. I know I feel and look tensed as hell. Hindi naman kasi ito madali. Sumasakit din ang dibdib ko pag naiisip ko.

"I can't believe you bro." may panghihinayang sa kanyang boses. I know where Robi is coming from. He would always tell me how lucky I am to have Chandria. She's one of a kind and someone I can really be serious about. A good catch but here I am letting her go.

"Chandria loves you...so much." he points out.

"I do too..." I told him honestly. Tumingin siya sa akin na para bang dumilim ang mukha pero agad din siyang umiwas ng tingin.

"...just not the same way." Yes, aaminin kong espesyal siya sa akin. Chandy has been the best person to me for the last two years we've known each other. Bago pa man naging kame ay mabait na siya sa akin. Maalalahanin at maalaga. Maintindihin at pasensyosa. I can tell her everything and expect for her to believe and understand. She would go out of her way to make things for me. She makes me feel I am someone important. That's what I love most about her. I felt love for her but differently. That difference is something I cannot put to rest.