Forgetting Grier

4: Hayes

Drunken words
Quote of the chapter:
The marks humans leave on us are to often scars -John Green
Song of the chapter:
Grenade - Bruno Mars
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"Of course I'm watching him! Nash, he's drunk off his ass there's not much I can do besides let him get his energy out."
"Ooh is that Nash? Let me talk!" I grabbed the phone from Tez without a problem hearing my brother talk through the device. "So you decided to take him to the park? Tez have you lost it? There are children that he could possibly scar for life there!" He screamed from the other side of the receiver. "Hamilton! How's it going bro? Long time no talk, I'm going to the park! And I'm going to go whoosh! Right down the slide. And the swings and the merry go round! You should come to, just like old times!" I continued to ramble on and on not really realizing what I was saying at all. I'd only been completely drunk about three times in my life, this now being the fourth, the first was right after she left. She was so beautiful and I love her so much, even now, even when I know that I'm not supposed to be saying that and management is trying to rid me of her. It's not fair especially to her. The phone was ripped out of my hands as quickly as I had gotten it and Tez was back to talking. "You see what I mean? He turns into a hyper, loud-mouth, and I'm not letting him stick around the house to mess up and continue to talk about Grace like a lost puppy. Hopefully he'll wear himself out and pass out that way I can take him back home and let him sleep. Please man, I need your help, and plus this way we can get some answers. Thanks dude, I'll text you the address and meet me here soon, it's not to far off your movie set. Bye." We, excuse me, I had been locked in my jeep for the past twenty minutes waiting for Tez to get off the phone with my brother. The parking lot of the park was completely empty seeing as it was in the middle of nowhere on a lot that overlooked the ocean. No one was in sight and finally Tez unlocked the back doors and I raced to the playhouse sliding like it was my favorite thing to do. In that moment it was, before the swings became it and the monkey bars and so on. Here I was almost 20 years old acting like I was 4 and not really caring. "Tez come push me!" I yelled from the swings where he stood in the parking lot waiting for my brother. After looking at me with a weird expression he came over and began to push me. "Yeah! I'm the king of the world!" I yelled ignoring the skeptical stare from my brother who was walking towards us. "Yes you are buddy, yes you are." Tez responded like I was a little kid, I didn't get why, I mean I am 19 years old and know how to take care of myself. "Is there something to two of you need to tell me?" Nash asked scaring Tez with his booming voice. "Shit man, and no, I'm just enjoying him like this, himself instead of what management wants him to be." Nash only nodded. "Remind me again why you asked me to come?"
"Because it's our duty as his brother and best friend to help him when he's like this, he's hurting man, and it's not his fault. Well I mean it is but you know not exactly, it's pretty confusing to-" I laughed at my best friends choice of words as Nash watched me with a death glare. "Tez! Enough, what are you on about?" If the world wasn't this blurry and funny- looking I might have realized how tired Nash looked. From the bags under his tires eyes to the way he held his body up to the light that wasn't in his eyes as normal. Was I drunk? No happy that's what it is. No sad, oh I don't know what I'm on about. "Well I'll let him tell you. All it takes is saying her name and he becomes a hormonal teenage girl, crying and whining about how she's going to hate him forever." I sent Tez a look. "Nu uh! I do not! What are you even talking about, I'm a guy!" The two boys simply laughed in my face. "On to what I'm actually here about, Hayes, I need you to tell me what the hell you did to Grace." The world stopped spinning when he said her name. There was the hole that I had tried to fill with the drinking. It would always be there when we weren't together. "I screwed up. I was threatened, I couldn't-" I couldn't continue, my weakness I didn't want to be shown did in the worst way possible. The tears that clouded my world were back and she was there. The broken girl from that video, from my text messages, she was sitting there staring as if I was a monster. I am a monster, because I promised her, I promised her the world, and then told her it wasn't true. That I didn't love her to the point where it hurt. But I did, God I love her so much. "I'm sorry I hurt you. God, I'm so sorry baby." My hands circled my head as I looked at the her that was their in my drunken mind but not in reality. In reality it was just me, loudly weeping in a park with my brother and best friend trying to help me. When I fell asleep I didn't realize it, the last thing I knew was going down a slide. But I did know this, I was home, Zan was still pissed at me, and my head hurt like a bitch. It was as if some dude was pounding my brain like a drum. I found some medicine waiting for me beside the bed and graciously took it silently thanking Tez. "Oh would you look who's up." Nash's voice boomed making me wince. I hadn't noticed him sitting in the chair on the other side of the room till now and what he was holding made my nauseous worse to the point where I ran to my bathroom to puke everything out of my system. When I returned Nash had moved to standing looking out of my window. We didn't say anything till he spoke up while I nursed my coffee. "Management called. Said they wanted you at the studio at 4. I know what you agreed to Hayes and I think you're an idiot and an asshole for it. I gave you a chance to explain yourself yesterday while you were drunk and you did. You're an idiot because you let her go, the one person who has continuously loved you no matter what. And you're an asshole because of what you did and those messages, God what were you thinking?! You went back on every promise you made to that girl and not you'll have to live with that. So today when you go into that studio and they have some other famous YouTube or Vine girl in there for you to pose with and act like you're in love, I want you to think about the girl who you killed. Because I think we both know this is exactly what she needed to give up. On everything, even her life. That girl would do anything for you, but you never give her the chance." He left after his speech was over, I said nothing.
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Finals make me want to die tbh
-T💋