Forgetting Grier

5: Grace

My Dearest
Quote of the chapter:
Every day may not be good,
but there is something
good in every day.
Song of the chapter:
Keep your head up - Andy Grammer
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My dearest,
Talking about you hurts. Seeing pictures of you and the girl who won you over me hurts like hell. But you're always there no matter what I do. Because I love you so freaking much. I thought we were going to be okay; I thought you were going to stay. But all you did was take my heart and crush away. When I saw the picture I knew why it was her. She beautiful in every possible way; in every way I'm not. The kind of girl that I get why you fell for her because she's just that great. I've noticed this about pain, it doesn't come with just one wave at a time, there are multiple. This time I was betrayed by the both of you, it was the least unexpected thing I could have guessed at. Because we were happy and so were her and her boyfriend; and I guess that's just the way it was supposed to play out. I left and he lives across the Atlantic Ocean. I want to hate you, to rip your heart out the way you did mine; but all I can do is cry. So this is a farewell to you as I get on this plane and leave you behind; forgetting you.
- Vee

I clicked the publish icon as I finished the assignment I had due within the hour. For our first entry in our book we needed a prologue so I wrote what came to mind. My plane was taking off soon; I had decided to go to Europe after all. Once seeing that someone else was effected the same way I was I knew that we could help each other. He almost didn't answer when I called him, he sounded as bad as I did. We understood what each other were going through, and when he asked be to come stay with him for Christmas break I agreed. So here I am, boarding a plane to Europe. I just hope I can sleep on the way there.
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Their blonde and brown hair was hard to miss when I got off the plane. It also helped that Joe was holding up a sign with my name in bold letters. Caspar looked as bad as I did, bags under his red, puffy eyes, his hair a mess. Joe gave me a sad smile before taking my bag and kissing my forehead. The other boy waited patiently before crushing me in a hug that made me want to cry all over again. We stood there for a while, Joe was checking to make sure that I had everything from the baggage claim before coming back. "Alright love let's get you to the flat. Come on mate lets not do any of that here." Joe said to the both of us ushering us out the door. We said nothing on the car ride there. I hadn't even hardly spoken a word; I hadn't for a few days, not since I talked to the doctor and found out the gender. That was 2 weeks ago. Thank God I'm out of school till after New Years and it's a few days after Thanksgiving now. Caspar looked like he was in the same boat, I know he missed posting last week and Joe looked worried. We both just sat there, In the backseat staring. They had made me a bed out of the couch when I arrived and Joe put my things in Caspars room before coming back up and leaving us to talk. Silence was all there was at first before I rushed into his arms again, crying. He held me stroking my hair and sitting me down. Let's just get something straight, I do not and will not ever like Caspar in that way, he's like a brother and I'm like a sister to him. "H-Have you talked to her?" He shook his head, my voice was rough and strained. "Not since she texted me to break up." I still didn't want to believe it, Hayes and Lauren, they were completely unexpected. He was my everything and she was one of my best friends. "You?" I shook my head. We later there for a while, I floated in and out of sleep and crying spells. Caspar just stayed with me doing the same. "What are you going to name her?"
"Ocean Mary Faith Grier. Mary because of Mary Kate and Faith because of Spencer." I said stroking my tummy. "I like it. You know this is what I've realized." Turning over to look at him I urged him to continue. "Us being like this is just letting them win and not be happy. They played us and that's not okay, but let's not let them have this power over us. I know that you're taking a break from social media like you've been doing for the past month but I need to post a video; and I want you to be in it." I pondered over what he said while Joe came in announcing dinner was ready. "I'll think about it, give me a few hours. Let's go eat." Caspar agreed and we met Joe upstairs to eat. "So Elliot, how's uni going?" Joe asked. "Well, our teacher just gave us an assignment for a big percentage of our grade that I have to work on while I'm here. I'm excited for it actually."
"That's wonderful!" Was all he replied, we continued to make small talk as we ate; catching up with each other.
Hayesgrier posted a photo
My phone lit up with the words. I still hadn't deleted the apps like I said I would, and every time he posted I looked. They all were of her, how beautiful she was and how much he was happy. It brought tears to my eyes knowing that it could have been me; it would have been me if life was fair. But it's not, it sucks and you just have to live through it because if not it'll move on without you. Just like he did. "I'll do it. You're right, they shouldn't have this control over us." Caspar gave me a knowing smile. "You saw their newest picture didn't you?" I nodded with a sigh. "So what are we going to do then?" I asked with a smile. "Well it's time for my  youtubers aren't funny, so we can do that."
"Yes! This is going to be fun! And We can do the Truth or Dare video Hayes and I were going to do next time I came in! I said clapping.
By the end of the video I was soaked in water, had flour on every inch of my body, and was laughing my ass off due to Caspar and Joe. It had been a great day, and I had hardly thought about him at all. It was very refreshing being with these boys, they were the same yet so different from other boys. Different, they didn't judge me or turn away when I needed to cry. They took care of me and made me laugh and I tried to do the same.
@ElliotGraceGray: Ya girls finally back with a new video ft. a few m8's from England! Be sure to check it out to know why I'm pouting (Side note: don't play Truth or Dare with Caspar and Joe😂)! @CasparLee @ThatcherJoe 

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