I suppose I am happy
Like when I am with my friends throwing my head back and covering my mouth
As I shake with laughter
At a joke someone just made
But then days turn to night
And my carefree grin turns into unexplainable sadness
Etched on my face like a tattoo
And I lay in bed
Thinking about all the things I wish I could say
All the things I'm too afraid to admit even with only pen and paper and mind
It's night like these when I realize:
I am sad and happy
Outgoing and shy
Rambunctious and quiet
But mostly
I am just empty
