A single snowflake - Jack Frost x Reader CANCELLED

Chapter 18

At the beginning there was nothing. No me, no you, no stars, no planets, no universe. Everything was just full of pure nothingness. A void so deep and vast that it was infinite. Or so we have been told. This is supposed to be the beginning of time, but is it? How and when did time start? Hasn't it always been there? It's the only constant in this reality we know, and in many others. There is no 'time before time'. It just is. You can't create or destroy time.

But what is time? Something supposedly so familiar, but still so unknown to us, so old but at the same time so new. We, humans, think we have incorporated it into our lives, that we have tamed it and it now revolves around us. We have created many ways of measuring time, we have tried to understand it and control it, we have called it our god, we have cursed it and thanked it. But time is as well the only real neutral entity. It passes through everybody. Time kills, but time also gives birth, and it starts wars but also ends them, and time is all the goodbyes, all the tears, and it also is all the coming backs, all the smiles, all the love. Our lives,  give the word the meaning you want, are merely time. Time gone to waste, time well spent, we either had a good or bad time, it's time to go, or it was about time. Everything is just as simple as time.

We don't own time, we don't control it, but we have given it such humanity it has become an old friend. Humans didn't create time, but they created the human concept of time. And, therefore, me.

The first thing I remember? I remember a campfire in the night. I remember the smell of burning flesh. I remember the screams, the cries, the pledges. I remember looking around, seeing something new, being something new. I remember fear and hate. I remember corpses. The first thing I remember is death.

The second thing I remember is birth. Pain, tears and strength and will to live. I remember happiness. 

I have seen humans grow since the beginning. I have walked side by side with them, watching them learn and learning myself. I didn't know it at the time, but in their eyes I was a god. A vengeful one. Who else would dare take their loved ones from theme, destroy their homes or ruin their crops? The first thing I taught humans was fear.

The years went by, and I didn't really notice how people seemed to have stopped seeing me as a life being and more like an unstoppable force mostly used in physics and maths. I was just fascinated with humans, and I still am. I tried to learn all I could from them as they learned about themselves. I travelled a lot, read every book that I took a hold of. In though the planet was getting more and more crowded, I felt alone. Since the beginning I thought it was my fault. Time wasn't good for humans. I hated being what I was. I spent most of my existence only knowing those kind of feelings: disgust, hate, and anger. I was disgusted of myself, and I started to feel jealous of humans. I started to get angry at them. Why would they ignore me!? Wasn't I good enough for them!? I became what I thought they saw me as: evil. Merciless. Cruel. I slaughtered millions of people, and came up with more and more ways to make them suffer. But then I learned to love.

The year was eighteen forty three. His name was Robin. At first I didn't know what I was feeling, and it was all so new to me. I decided to follow him. I watched him from the shadows, feeling extremely shy even though knowing that I was invisible to him. Through the years I spent in love with him, I could always feel like there was this little voice in my head telling me this was not what I was made for. That time does not fall in love. It's insane! I always used to ignore it, until one fatal day. Eighteen ninety eight. According to his friends, Robin had lived a surprisingly good and long life, which I felt proud of. I had stablished as my duty the protection of the one I loved the most. He seemed to not have aged I year since I first met him. This should have been my wakeup call, but I was too selfish to realize. Years kept going by, I don't remember how many. I was ecstatic: he was as beautiful as before; a timeless beauty. But the truth was in his eyes. He had seen all his loved ones suffer and perish before his own two eyes. He was going insane, and had tried to kill himself several times. He started to believe that there was someone who was messing with his life just to see him suffer, and became paranoid. He decided to look for this evil being and beg it to end his life. Suddenly, from the corner of his eyes, Robin saw something... unusual. A small spot in the middle of a crowd. The people didn't seem to notice it, and just went around it as if nothing was there. He made his way through them, running as fast as he could, and then... he found me. I stared at him in awe, not fully understanding what was happening. He grabbed my hands, and suddenly, all the years, all the illnesses I had been keeping from him, made their way into his body. In the moment, just before he finally passed away, I realized that his eyes had never been brighter. That's when I met her. The other side of me. Nemesis.

(Y/N)'s POV:

I kept staring at Amser, frozen. She seemed to be in what I hoped to be a deep slumber, but still had been able to recognize me during a brief period of lucidity. I reached towards her and gently moved her arms from her chest: a deep hole went all the way through her. My throat felt dry and I didn't even have the strength to cry. I was sorry, so sorry, but I couldn't do anything to fix this. I carefully picked her up, expecting at least a grunt or whine. She didn't say a thing, and her body was surprisingly light. I squinted my eyes, trying to see my surroundings. Pitch black. I threw Amser on my shoulders and started to make my way out of this hellhole. I started walking towards nowhere, the floor feeling smooth and always the same. It was too silent in here. I didn't like it, so I decided to apologize, even though right now none could really hear me.

"I feel like I owe a lot of people an apology, so, I guess this is for all of you, wherever any of us may be. Hah. Well, um, I think Amser should go first, seeing as she's the only one who came. You guys are so rude, you didn't even show up! Um, I-I don't know where to start. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not being there for you, I'm sorry for making you think you couldn't tell me your problems, and mostly, I'm sorry for this." I waved my hand, pointing to the infinite blackness that surrounded us. "I'm sorry for making Jack use you, I'm sorry for what's happening to you." I glanced towards her body, which also was my only source of light. Bigger chunks of her had dissapeared since I had picked her up. I turned my head again and tried to ignore the awful feeling in my gut. "I'm mostly sorry for not being able to help you." Silence again. Not even my footsteps could be heard. Nor did my breathing. But someone else's could.

"Well, hello, and then you very much for finding the rest of her! I'll be taking that now, thank you." A sudden force ripped Amser off my shoulders and the whole room lighted up. Nemesis was standing in the middle of it, holding her in her arms and smiling an unnaturally wide grin. "This little dummy here" she said, playfully-like hitting her on the shoulder and making most of it disappear in a cloud of smoke, making me wince. "had hidden both of you and also trapped me in a little corner of his mind. Without your help, it could've taken me years to find her. Oh, but I didn't mind. I've got time after all." she laughed at her own joke. I could feel the hate burning inside of me. "Oh, right, you ruined everything again, didn't you? Thanks to you, I'll be able to get out of here and spread absolute madness across the world." She flashed me a smile and lifted her hand. She was about to snap her fingers when she looked at me with a look of fake worry in her face. "Oh, no! I almost forgot! If I don't get you out of here too, you won't be able to do it by yourself and will end up dying here, alone! We don't want that, do we? No, we will help you go outside with all your little friends, and die there, surrounded by the people you know and love but now hate you. Muck better." I growled. "You bitch!" She gasped "Oh, no! You shouldn't say those kind of words! I think North would agree with me. Why don't you ask him? Oh, and tell the Guardians I said hi! Toodles!"

She finally snapped her fingers, and both of us vanished in a spiral of what seemed to be... black sand!?

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OMG. I think this is the longest chapter I have ever written. It ends in kind of a cliffhanger, but I didn't break my promise like many other times (cough, cough). I hope you all like it! Comments are very much appreciated, thank you!