My Will to Live

The reason it still continues

I still dont understand why the hatred against me continues to go on,
It has been going on for so long.
I've thought that if I just ignore it like everyone else says,
I thought they would stop but that just provoked them to do it 10x harder.
There are people that I've never even talked to that for some reason despise me with all their might,
I've tried to tell the teachers and adults like people say,
But they just say its just games and that it will stop since the whole class is in it.
My school starts off every year with the
"Stop Bullying"
"Bullying isn't cool"
"Bullying in school needs to stop"
And yet the school didn't even do anything to stop my classmates from bothering me,
I've had to live with it for 6 years,
When is it going to end already?
The time I stand up to the bully,
I get punished for it but he goes away with it Scott free,
Why doesnt he get the same punishment while I still am suffering,
I couldn't stop the suicidal thoughts,
I just lay in my room looking at the ceiling thinking,
"wouldn't it be that easy to stop it all, its almost like stopping pain with more pain."
Since I've been depressed lately,
My friends really don't understand why I'm still hooked on this,
But people that haven't had to deal with this suffering like others including me
They can never understand us unless they are just like us.