drown • JiHope (COMPLETED)

Chapter; 4

[Jiminips] *video above is my crappy ass edit, the name Jiminips will make sense*

I sat on the kitchen chair, holding my warm cup of tea in my hands that are tightly woven around a blanket.

The exact blanket, in fact, that was thrown onto the floor last night.

Last night.

Hobi left, I said it. Those words. Those four words.

I

I said it, I knew I meant it. I knew in my heart my body my soul my arms and my mind. But.

Love

He got up

You

And left

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It's 2 in the afternoon, I'm in the same spot in the kitchen seat but my fourth glass of wine in my hand instead of the tea.

Any words I could speak, they would be slurred into nothing, i felt the room start to spin.

Colors and clouds falling onto me, and I just sat there letting the liquid swim down my throat and put myself into a living comatose state.

Pain.

That was all I could feel right now.

All the ways a person could kill you without death involved.

All the ways a person could break your heart without stopping it completely.

It all happened last night, at once. To me. To him. To us.

Us

We kissed, we have many times. Nothing was finalized and I didn't even have enough time to call him mine.

Did he even care.

Mine.

Does he even love me.

Love.

Was this all a lie.

Pain.

I don't know.

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Deeper and deeper.
The wounds just get deeper.