As We Lay ~ A Y/N and Chresanto August Love Story ~

Chappie 5

Y/n~After they did the nasty~

Roc pov~

Me: that(breaths) was fucking amazing babe

Y/n: doesn't smile) uh yea it was

Me:(looks at her) hey what's wrong( grabs and lifts her chin so they have eye contact)

Y/n:(pulls her chin away) chres...don't you ever think about the ones we are hurting everytime we do this? I'm feeling guilty. I'm hurting my friend and boyfriend. I don't wanna lose either of them. I know you don't wanna lose Jordan do you?

Me:( in deep thought) Your right y/n but I honestly don't wanna end us. I love you with all my heart and soul. It's already hard enough to see you in the arms of another man knowing you should be in my arms. But we can't go back now. Were too deep in. I don't wanna change anything. I don't wanna lose Jordan but then again I wouldn't care. I love her, I do, but I'm in love with you y/n( looking in her eyes the entire time)

Y/n:(tears) that's so sweet chres. I'm in love with you too but I didn't want to hurt anyone. I think we should stop this before it gets worse.

Me:(shakes head) baby no, I love you, please no please don't do this. I need you in my life.

Y/n:( kisses me long and passionately) I'm sorry chres. I love you baby.

She takes a shower then gets dressed, kisses me one last time then walks out. This honestly hurt me. I don't know what I'm gonna do without that girl. She has my heart. She's my future wife and babymama. She's mine. Only mine. I can't just let her leave me like that. I've never even cried for a girl before until now, not even over Jordan. I really don't wanna hurt Jordan. Shes a beautiful,intelligent, strong woman that any man would be lucky to have. I'm just not that man. I want Y/n. One day she is gonna be mine. One day.

Y/n Pov~

On the way home, I couldn't help but think about what just happened. Maybe I shouldn't have said anything because god knows I love chresanto. I'm in love with him. Not even diggy can make me feel like chres can. But maybe letting this affair go was a good thing. But I do know that if me in chres are left alone together.....it's going down....plain and simple.

Arrived home~

Diggy: hey bae how was it

Me: hey babe it was alright....could've been better I guess

Diggy: (looks at me) have you been crying

Me: uhh no I haven't why would you ask

Diggy: Uhhh yess you have...your eyes are red and they are only that red when you cry

Me: it's nothing

Diggy:tell me

Me: no it's fine, I'm going to lay down now( heading towards the stairs)

Diggy: ( blocks my way) no your gonna tell me right now( glares down at her)

Me: ( getting mad) I said it's NOTHING damn

Diggy: ( pissed) fine be a damn bitch about it

Me:( gasps) I'm a bitch because I didn't wanna tell u nothing

Diggy: hell muthafuckin yea

Me:( rolls eyes) whatever fucking asshole

I go into the room and just lay and think til I drifted off to sleep thinking about chres. I miss him.

Roc pov~

I get home and I'm a bit emotionally drained. I need Y/n back.

Jordan: roc where tf you been!?!?! I was calling your phone but your ass never picked up

I look at my phone and see 23 texts and 8 calls from Jordan. Well damn.

Me: look bae I'm sorry. I was still at the meeting with the boys and my phone was on silent

Jordan:( hugs me) I thought something happened to you( looks in my eyes) were you crying?

Me: nah I wasn't crying. Pshh, what I look like crying? That would be unspiffy of me to do

Jordan: hmm then why your eyes red?

Me: it's nothing Jordan, just leave it alone.

Jordan: (rolls eyes at me) stop lying to me. Your ass was crying.

Me: ( getting aggravated) Jordan nobodys lying to you damn. I said it's nothing. Leave it alone

Jordan: ( glares at me) fine asshole( goes upstairs and into our room,slamming the door)

I shake my head and sit on the couch and start thinking. Will Y/n be in my life? Will she ever carry my kids? Will I ever marry her? I started drifting to sleep thinking about Y/n. I miss her so much and it just dawned on me......we didn't use a condom.