My depressed boyfriend

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A song that I love and thought would go well with this chapter. It says the name somewhere in the chapter as Tyler plays it for Troye.

Troye's P.O.V

There was beeping all around me. I didn't know where I was. Or what had happened. I tried opening my eyes, but I couldn't, then I heard a woman's voice, she sounded familiar, but I couldn't work out who is was.
That's when I heard him. Tyler. What's he doing here? Where even am I?
'How long until he wakes up doctor?' I heard Tyler ask, I presume a doctor. Am I in hospital? What the fuck?
'It shouldn't be too long now, you can try talking to him see if he wakes up, or see if he reacts to you speaking. He may be able to hear us' the familiar voice said.
I heard two set of footsteps. I think one was the doctor walking out and Tyler walking to me.
'Troye? Baby? Can you hear me?' I tried everything I could to respond, but again a couldn't move. I felt him grab my hand, lacing his fingers with mine.
'Babe, if you can hear me squeeze my hand' sounds like he was on the verge of tears. But I tried, I tried and didn't stop until I did it. Come on! Squeeze his fücking hand! I did it. It worked. I squeezed his hand!
'Oh my god! Troye! You're okay!' He cried. I also managed to open my eyes as well.
'I wanted to play you your favorite song' he said getting his phone out.
He started to play my favorite song, uncover by Zara Larson

Nobody sees, nobody knows,
We are a secret can't be exposed.
That's how it is, that's how it goes,
Far from the others, close to each other.

In the daylight, in the daylight,
When the sun is shining,
On the late night, on the late night,
When the moon is blinding.
In the plain sight, plain sight,
Like stars in hiding,
You and I burn on, on.

Put two and together, forever we'll never change
Two and together we'll never change

Nobody sees, nobody knows
We are a secret, can't be exposed
That's how it is, that's how it goes
Far from the others, close to each other
That's when we uncover, cover, cover
That's when we uncover, cover, cover

We both started singing along

My asylum, my asylum is in your arms
When the world gives heavy burdens
I can bear a thousand tons
On your shoulder, on your shoulder
I can reach an endless sky
Feels like paradise

Put two and together, forever we'll never change
Two and together we'll never change.

Nobody sees, nobody knows
We are a secret, can't be exposed
That's how it is, that's how it goes
Far from the others, close to each other
That's when we uncover, cover, cover
That's when we uncover, cover, cover

We could build a universe right here,
All the world could disappear,
Wouldn't notice, wouldn't care
We could build a universe right here
The world could disappear,
I just need you near

Nobody sees, nobody knows,
We are a secret, can't be exposed
That's how it is, that's how it goes
Far from the others, close to each other
That's when we uncover, cover, cover
That's when we uncover, cover, cover
That's when we uncover

It's sort of like my comfort song. It calms me down yet makes me think about all the times no one knew how depressed I was, and when they found out they either left me or became distant. But Tyler? He was different. He stayed and I'm still trying to figure out why. The only difference was he started loving me more than anyone ever has. And I'm more than grateful for that. But.....why? That's the one question I've asked myself every night for the past two years. Why? There are so many other guys who aren't suffering that he could be with. It'll be so much less stressful let alone painful. I know I'm hurting him when I hurt myself, and I hate it. But I have to do it because I deserve it.

'Troye? Baby? I love you, you know that right?' He brings me back from my thoughts. I just give him a slow nod.
'Good. Because I do.' He tells me. Right I'm gonna ask him. I have to, before it destroys me even more than it already has. 'But why? Why do you love me? I don't understand. Why would you love someone who can't even learn to love himself? You should hat-' he cut me off my kissing me. 'I love you for you, not because you hurt yourself or hate yourself! I love you because you are kind, sweet, loving and not to mention you are so fücking beautiful, you're the most beautiful guy I have ever met Troye, and I'm not just saying that to make you feel better. I'm saying it because it true. I love you more than anything Troye' by the time he's finished ranting on about why he loves me I'm crying my eyes out. I don't even know why, probably because I always thought he was with me just out of pity. But I love him and he loves me.
'I love you ty' I muttered with a small smile on my face. 'I love you too baby. More than you'll ever know' I let out a little laugh and reached up to kiss him.

I was in hospital for about 5 days, but I'm home now. Thank fück. Anyways, I was sitting on the couch when Tyler came in. 'Hey babe, whatcha doing?' I just shrugged and go back to looking at my phone. No one has even texted me to see if I'm alright. Gee, nice to know people care. Not. Anyway I started texting my new friend that I met at the hospital, her name was Kelly, she said she was in for the same reason I was, she tried to commit suicide, by overdosing though. But she was really nice, but sadly she's still in hospital. She's coming out in a few days though, so that's good. Well Tyler walked in just after I told her I'll come visit her tomorrow, saying that dinner was ready. I followed him into the dining room and we sat down at the table.
'How you doing babe?' I just shrug my shoulders and say that I'm doing okay. 'I love you Troye, you know that right?' He has a worried look on his face 'yeah I know, I love you too babe' I look up at him and smile. We continued eating in a comfortable silence. Once we'd finished I went back over to the couch and saw that I had a unread text from Kelly

❤Kells❤: hey Troye! I miss you already! Can't wait to see you tomorrow either! Would you be able to pick me up? My parents have work and I have no friends other than you. Hope you can! I hate buses, and I don't trust Uber's either. So would you be
able to? Omg I'm such a chatterbox sorry!😂😂

So I called out to Tyler 'babe!?' I yelled 'what's up boo?' He replies as he comes into the room 'would we be able to pick Kelly up from the hospital tomorrow?' I plead and give him puppy eyes. 'Sure, why not?' He shrugs 'thanks ty' I say

👑King Troye👑: yeah totally! I can't wait to see you either! I'll see you tomorrow! What time do I need to be there?

❤Kells❤️: I'm allowed to leave at around 11:30, so maybe like 11:15?

👑King Troye👑: perfect! I'll see you tomorrow!!