Dinah Jane (one shots)

Hard To Say Goodbye.

WARNING! THIS ONE SHOT IS ONE OF THE SADDEST THAT I HAVE WRITTEN. IF YOU DON'T DO SAD THEN DO NOT READ THIS. SOME OF MY INSPIRATION FOR THIS WAS A TYLER PERRY PRODUCTION (WHY DID I GET MARRIED). THOSE THAT DO DECIDE TO READ IT I HOPE YOU ALL LIKE IT. AND IF YOU DON'T THAT'S COOL TOO. JUST LEAVE REVIEWS ON WHAT YOU LIKED, DIDN'T LIKE, AND HOW I COULD MAKE THE NEXT ONE BETTER. I CAN ONLY GET BETTER IF YOU LET ME KNOW WHAT I DID WRONG, OR RIGHT FOR THAT MATTER. SO ENJOY!

It's been five months, 151 days to be exact, since Dinah has had to go through one of, if not the hardest thing she's ever experienced in all of her twenty-eight years of living. And although everyone is constantly telling her the same thing over and over, you know what you'd normally expect hear when people are in mourning; "you know that things get better with time" or "time heals all wounds", but she's not really sure that it's true anymore. To anyone, five months is a really long time, but it clearly isn't nearly enough to grieve the loss of someone, seeing as how Dinah still hasn't been able to deal with it. It's been extremely hard on her. Who would expect her to just be okay, anyone to be okay when they've lost what has become the sparkle in their eye, the pep in their step. Of course, when anyone asks her how she is, she lies and says she's fine, but anyone who knows who she truly is can see past the facade, she's not okay. Anyone who's ever experienced what she has experienced knows that she can't possibly be okay. Not in the least bit. She hasn't been okay since that day and unless she faces it, she never will be.

Prior to the tragedy Dinah had been a very happy person; loving, caring, bubbly, just an overall pleasure to be around. There was no reason for her not to be. Signed to Columbia Records, owning a total of 5 Grammys, a few VMAs, AMAs, etc., her career was definitely taking off. There was so much she had accomplished that many only ever dream of. Happily married and the mother of a beautiful three-year old boy, Maikai, everything was coming along just right for her and Dinah couldn't think of anything that could make things any more great. She had everything she could have ever wanted. But as she sat alone in the center of the California King bed, surrounded by pictures of the most important human being in her life, she can't help the tears that filled her eyes from cascading down her face. From the moment it happened she knew. She knew once she opened her eyes in the back of the ambulance as they rushed them to the hospital. However, she had hope. Hope that this wouldn't be their fate because there was no way in hell that God would do this to them, to her. She'd always done right by him, her family and friends, and herself. She paid her dues and worked hard for everything in her life. Nothing had ever been handed to her on a silver platter. She didn't have much growing up but she never wanted for anything and her upbringing allowed for her to be extremely humble and grateful. She still had to work just as hard, if not harder to get where she is today and although she wasn't one of those people who believed that one should be rewarded for every good thing they've done, she did believe that no good deed goes unrewarded. She was blessed and as long as she kept doing what it was that she was supposed to do, she would be just fine.

She still remembers the day she found out that she was pregnant with her first child with her husband Y/F/N Y/M/N Y/L/N. She was more than enthusiastic and the look on Y/N's face when she told him, or rather when he figured out after finding the many positive pregnancy tests she had taken, in the garbage can located in their bathroom. He had been overjoyed. Dinah had just finished a sold out show in NYC at the Apollo, there were 3 stops left on her tour and she planned to tell Y/N once they got back to their home in Santa Ana, California. Y/N had been off and on the tour with her, mainly off producing records, but he made sure to be available anytime his wife needed him to help calm her down and set her straight. They were finally in a place where they felt they could bring a baby into the world and not only provide all the love and care in the world, but all the financial support that comes along with having a baby.