Life

Chapter 4~Middle School Pt 3

8th grade holy shit. I guess that was the year I excepted myself for who I was. Not completely but I guess some days I didn't care as much of what people thought of me. The only down side was My flashbacks got worse, because before that i had only had them at night, but then i started to have them during the day. I lost some friends. I lost two more boyfriends. boo them. Oh well I'm still pissed at some people and will stay pissed at them because their just giant assholes. I always used to say "I hate drama" but in reality I loved it. The tension in the air, or the feeling of wondering what would happen if I just punched her/him in the face. Or trying to act like you don't know something, or trying to keep a secret. I kinda really loved it.

<"Watch out all you dumb bitches" my friend yells as we speed walk down the hall side by side, just like every other day. God I love her, she doesn't care what people think and its great. We're actually on our way to yell at her boyfriend for talking to the school slut, and by we, I mean her as I stand awkwardly beside her as she screams insults at him. For a moment it was like slow motion I looked over saw her blond hair flying past her shoulder in the wind as we fly down the halls. I can hear Mrs Canidmire yelling at us to slow down. "Suck a dick old lady" screams susan. She's crazy and I don't know if it was just the feeling but I think I might be in love with this crazy bitch. God help me if I am.> 

I also learned that I was Bisexual. Not a big deal it just made it easier to talk to the males in my life, I was finally able to brag about getting more pussy than them. I would always have to stop myself before that. I was also told a lot that year that I was pretty cool and funny. I don't see why but what the hell, who should I be to complain. Its better than what I was used to hearing. Now I'm not saying I didn't hear any shit, Because I did. I just got better at acting like it didn't bother me. Once people started to believe it didn't hurt me, a bunch of them stopped which was great. My life stayed great. Up until High School. That was bullshit.