Forever

Chapter 10

I hear some strange noise and open my eyes. Someone is standing next to my bed. I get up from the bed and move toward that person. The face is hidden in the shadow, but I recognize the clothes he's wearing. He moves toward me and now I can see his face.

Zayn is standing right in front of me. Smile on his face is wide and bright, his eyes shining. He puts his hand on my cheek and his thumb brushes my lips. Electricity goes through my body, I shudder from his gentle touch. He leans toward me and his lips meet mine.

His tongue runs along mine. I can feel the taste of mint and cigarettes on my tongue. I wrap my arms around his waist and he pulls me closer to him.

His lips move to my jawline and he kisses my neck. I close my eyes and a moan escapes my mouth.

"This was enough to prove that you're heartless." he says and I back away in shock. Instead of Zayn, Jake is standing in front of me, his face in frown.

"Jake, I wasn't.. It's not what you think!" I try to defend myself.

"You're just a bitch, just like I taught you are." he says the words that crush my world down.

I straight in my bed, soaked with sweat and tears that are running down my face. It was all just a dream. It wasn't real.

"You're just a bitch, just like I taught you are." Jakes' voice echoes in my head, crushing my heart. It was so real, the pain on his face, Zayns' lips, the taste of mint and cigarettes...

I can't stop crying, the tears are escaping my eyes and I can't breathe. Those words hurt me so much, even through they weren't really said.

I hear light knock on my door and Jakes' voice. "Beth, are you awake?"

"Yeah, just a second!" I say and wipe away my tears. I take a deep breath before I tell him he can come in. He enters the room and seats on the bed.

"Are you ok? Did something happen?" he asks me anxiously. Yes, I just had a horrible dream about you telling me I'm a bitch.

"No, I'm fine. I just woke up." I feel like crying again. I can't cry while he's in the room. I'll have to explain what happened and listen to him while he explains to me it was just a dream. "What did you want to say?" I change the topic.

"Well... I.. We need to talk about Zayn." he lets a breath out. Every single fuckin' thing is about Zayn since I got here. He became part of everything, the school, my room, my thoughts... And now he's messing with my relationship with my brother.

"What about Zayn?" I don't really want to know. I don't want to talk about it. But I can't be such a bitch and say no to Jake. He must have a good reason for this conversation, he hates talking about Zayn. Whenever I ask him something related to Zayn, he goes to his room without a word.

"Listen.. I don't know what's going on between two of you, but..." he says to quickly, but I cut him off. I did not see this coming.

"Nothing is happening between us!" it's true, nothing happened. We just kissed, it meant nothing. I kissed many guys... But, none of them caused my heart beat so fast. I never felt that electricity.

I shake my head chasing those thoughts away. It meant nothing, he's just another guy I kissed.

"I trust you, but still.. I want you to stay away from him. For your own sake. He's not good for you. I know him, he'll hurt you." he says quickly, like he's trying to say everything without me interrupting him.

"Trust me Jake, nothing happened. What made you think that something's going on?" don't tell me you saw us kissing, please. I'm so embarrassed of myself...

"I saw you looking at him at the classes. You're always around him." I feel relived, he didn't see us.

"That's not true. I don't look at him, he's calling me to tell me stuff. And I'm not the one who is around him, he's the one who is around me." no way I'm confessing those things to him. My day is not complete when I don't see him. Looking at him is my new hobby. I became addicted to Zayn.

"I've heard you say his name last night while you were sleeping." the words freeze me. No way... I'm not saying his name in my sleep. Or am I? I don't know anymore.

"You don't.. I... I didn't!" I raise my voice. Why am I here, anyway? I don't have to be here, I don't have to have this conversation with him. "It's none of your business."

I get out of my bed and go to the bathroom. I lock the door behind. His steps are following me by the door, and he knocks.

"Come on, Beth! Don't be mad at me! Come out!" I ignore him. I'm not getting out of here until he's gone. How am I supposed to face him? I'm too embarrassed to look him in the eyes. "Please, I didn't want to offend you."

"Go away!" I yell at him. No fuckin' way I'm getting out of here. I'll spend the rest of my life in the dirty bathroom if I have to, but I'm not facing him now. Not today, everything is too fresh.

"Come on, you know I said that because I'm worried about you! Come out, please!" he begs me, but I can't. He'll judge me, as everybody else. Whatever I do, everybody judges me. I can't take it anymore.

"I'm not getting out of here, Jake! You can do that all day, I won't get out!" I shout at the door behind which he's standing. "You're the same as everybody else! Just judging me, with no proves." I say what's on my heart.

I know I hurt him. His last girlfriend broke up with him using the same words. 'You are the same as everybody else!' He hates those words, it's the biggest lie for him. He really is not the same like everybody else, my Jake is different, special, better.

And I'm here, hurting him with practically no reason. He's just trying to protect me.

I know that he would never hurt me. It's just that he's too controlling. He wants everybody to listen to him without complaining, but I can't live like that.

I used to do whatever I like, nobody controlled me, no one told me what to do. I was left on my own, free to do whatever I want. And I hated that freedom. It carried so many responsibility with it. Freedom is tough, it's so damn true.

I move toward the door and unlock them. I step into the hallway and Jake is not here. When I enter my room I hear the main door shutting behind him.

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