JOSHLER •• I rely on you ••

Trusted you

" We are twenty one pilots and so are you " Tyler said as the first show ended. Josh and him bowed down and walked offstage. The crew congratulated them on the awesome show it was. Tyler couldn't help but smile. He loved playing live. There was something about playing live that made Tyler the happiest man in the room.

It was different for Josh. The only reason he came across as confident was because he had his drums in front of him and Tyler singing right beside him. As long as he has these two things, nothing could really get to him.

Josh couldn't sleep because his upper body was aching like anything. He got up and went to eat some cereal when he noticed someone sitting outside the tour bus in freezing cold.

Tyler? He said as he walked out and put a jacket over Tyler.

Tyler looked up but didn't say anything. Josh knew this was bad. It it was something casual, he would've known by now.

What's up Ty? He said as he stood next to the boy in the black hoodie.

Just stuff. Tyler murmured

You can tell me you know. It's not like I don't know every single thing there is to know about you.

The air was cold and Josh had no idea why Tyler wasn't telling him everything already. He was the first to know about blurryface, he was the first to know about Tyler's past of struggling with depression and self harm. Josh understood Tyler more than anybody else. Why wouldn't Tyler tell him what's wrong already.

His thoughts were cut off as he heard a soft sob escaping Tyler's mouth.

Hey, Tyler. Look at me. Josh said as he now looked Tyler right in the eyes.

He's been crying.

Tyler. Please. What's wrong?
Josh was worried. He hasn't seen Tyler this worn down in a long time.

It took all the courage in Tyler's heart to open his mouth and say those words. The words Tyler never thought he would ever have to say. Tyler felt a chill run down his whole body as he gathered enough courage to finally tell Josh.

Jenna is cheating on me. Tyler spoke up choking on his own trust.

What? Josh spat out in disbelief.
Tyler, you must've misunderstood it. She can't cheat on you. She loves you too much to even think of it. Josh was now stuttering.

I found some texts on her phone to a random guy who was asking her when I'll be on tour so he could have the time of his life again.
Tyler's eyes were red and his eyes were filling up as he spoke in a cracking voice.

I confronted her Josh. She agreed to it. She said that she got lonely and you know what?
She told me that she was sure I've been fucking around on tour.
You know what the best part is Josh? That even after everything she came to me crying and I let it go. I let it go because I trusted her again and guess what? She broke my trust. Again.

Tyler was sobbing right now. He couldn't believe this was happening. Jenna. Tyler loved her with everything he had and she just threw it in the trash leaving Tyler a broken mess.

Josh couldn't think straight. He was overflowing with anger.
How could she? Tyler trusted her. Tyler loved her. Goddamnit
I TRUSTED YOU WITH TYLER.
Josh couldn't hold back as his anger flowed in tears.

It's going to be alright Tyler. We have made it through all those years of self hatred, insecurities, pain and brokenness. We can make it again. Josh spoke trying not to scream internally.

I don't want it Josh. I don't want to live anymore. I spent all my life trying to find reasons to live. I thought I was lucky to find you and then I found her.
I found two reasons to live for and do you see where that got me? Tyler was choking on his own words as he punched the tour bus.

I'm here Tyler. I know that you love her and it disgusts me that she dared to hurt you. It makes me feel so bad that I wasn't there when you needed me to. If I knew about this, I wouldn't have let you forgive her so easily. I wouldn't have let you trust her just to get broken again. I'm sorry Ty. I'm here now and we will make it through. We've made it through years of darkness Tyler.
If you trust me, we will make it through this.

Tyler didn't say a word. He was sobbing as Josh pulled him into a hug which made Tyler cry even harder.

" Stay alive. Stay alive for me"
Josh softly whispered near Tyler's ear.

Tyler was sobbing because he felt bad for not telling about everything to Josh as soon as it happened.
Josh always knows how to make him feel better about himself.
After the success of blurryface, he never thought he would doubt himself ever again but alas, life has its own intricate ways of sucking.
He felt good to hear Josh humming truce in his ears.
It felt good to know that he's not his only friend. Josh gave him hope that he'll make it through. He hoped he can.

Stay alive stay alive for me.