Before reading: This is something of a confession. Read with an open mind. Hate will be blocked.
Originally posted on my Therian Instagram account, @fern_swift_paw.
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I have not been sleeping well this week, due to highly-functioning anxiety. Someone decided to come onto this account last week, along with his friends, and shit all over my comments. Yea, okay to a degree it was deserved because I did him wrong when my anxiety and depression was unmanaged. It was awful - my relationship with my mamma was at a very tense point, what with me flying off of the handle about near enough everything. I was pressured into doing the most God-awful act of cheating on him... my anxious brain just couldn't think rationally. The trouble with anxiety is that all of those thoughts, the ones that hit you one after the other like a barrage of cannon-fire.. they don't give you time to think rationally and problem solve. Of course I know cheating is wrong, and I wished I could have had the techniques I have now in assertive communication and confidence to say no and resist pressure from the both of them.
As much as the guilt kills sometimes, I have to let go of my past. I have to forgive anxious, at a knife edge Georgia for giving into their pressure. I have to forgive her for breaking his heart. If we keep ruminating over our past, it will drag us down and out, further and further into the depths of depression and hatred for yourself. It's awful.
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