perfection

chapter 1: her

"Goddamn it Alice, can you stay out of trouble for one damn second?" my friend Virgo whined loudly, I covered my ears, the screechy noise was agitating my poor ears.

I rolled my eyes laughing,"Geez, don't whine like a mutt, I don't think I've happened to do anything wrong today."

Virgo rolled over on her stomach, staring harshly at me from my own bed,"You threw skittles at the security guard in Walmart and told him to 'taste the fücking rainbow'."

I snort,"I did not."

She scowled sourly,"Denial."

I shrug,"Maybe I did, I can't remember." I scrape my dyed hair into a messy bun of some sort, I lie on my back on the carpeted floor, face to face with Virgo looking down at me.

"You're twenty-two Alice, you aren't a child anymore." she said dead panned.

I turned away from her eyes and lay on my stomach, breathing in the carpets musty smell, I hack,"It smells like feet down here-"

Virgo interrupts me,"You're getting old Alice."

I sit up, cross-legged, staring at the chipping paint on the ceiling,"But it was funny though."

Virgo snorted,"Yeah it was, but it's not going to change the fact that you're getting hella old Alice."

I shrug nonchalantly,"You talk as if i'm an old hag, i'm only twenty-one."

Virgo wriggles her fingers,"Twenty-one years closer to death."

I roll my eyes.

All the job applications I had sent out five months ago had been rejected or I had gotten no reply, I was basically a jobless person feeding off her parents money right now.

It stressed me out severely, my boyfriend broke up with me over a month ago and gave me the 'excuses', I had been expired since I turned twenty.

Expiring and rotting away in my room, feeding off my parents money.

I guess he didn't really want a jobless grown ass woman, if I were him, I wouldn't want me either.

I was heartbroken and reckless, and now my hair was a sheen of pastel pink.

I looked like the fairground's cotton candy.

It didn't suit me, like Virgo had said, I was getting old and I had expired, I was past the stage of dyed hair.

Being my reckless self was pointless.

Waiting for him to come back was so time consuming and had zero outcome; it was like reading a book about earth when you were looking for information on the moon; like i had said before,

Pointless.

I was just waiting for him to call me and tell me that he stopped loving me long ago so I could start to properly cry and move on.

Waiting for him was pointless because I knew there was no way he was going to come back.

Virgo had fallen asleep on my bed that still smelt like him, I got off of the floor and unlocked the window, "I'm going out for a minute Virgo." I whisper to her, my voice echoing through the room and coming back to me because it didn't reach her ears, since she was asleep and it just bounced off the empty walls.