Teach me to swallow pills
Teach me to let it go
Teach me to lean my head back
And let it all flow
Lower me down to what I deserve
For I wouldnt know
This rope is battered
Yet lower me down
Slowly im drowning
You wouldnt know
And yet I am weak
And i couldnt believe
The cowardice in me
It is slowly getting dark
As im lowered
To my levels
To the river of sticks
Oh i am so sick
The pills should make me better
And yet no
No, but i never say no
My mind is perverse, wicked and warped
I see myself a monster
But the temptation is a sickeningly sweet smell
And just one bite of fruit
I dont want this dream to end
For me to fall again
And my mind prods against me
But the black takes control
A concious descision
To do what will kill me
What kills me
What strangles me so
And then i awake
From the sweet green dream
And it turns to a nightmare
I see it newly
For day casts shadows on the nights new sights
And I see this as wicked
Which I have known many times before
And you who knows my secrets
Who hears my whispers
What do believe
Am i monster?
Either way
Its all the same
Take the pills
But i do not know how to heal
I cant think of helping myself
I couldnt be able to stop this gushing flow
So teach me
Dear stranger
Teach me to swallow pills
How many how often too much too soon
Im sorry im sorry
I cant understand
Too many too soon
No my dear no
Too little too late
Shouldve taken more sooner
Before i became me
Shouldve known more
Been braver
But not anymore
The only thing i know to do is to destroy me
So thats what I'll do
Teach me to swallow pills
