I am such a disaster
Look what this world has taught me
Every breath breathed
Every word released
Is for the love of me
Is this what my life must be
A living dying entity?
Because i am so tired
Of living in this self absorbed agony
Yet i cannot bring myself to deny me
And who can i turn to
Who could understand
The pain of loving me
Every day i live
I lose a bit more of my mind
Every night i sleep
The more im scared of my thoughts
Who can release me
From this unmitigated agony
Someone wash me up and cleanse me
Steal me from myself
My double faced self
Steal me up with you
Dress me in pure white
Whisper in my ear
Stories of love and lack of fear
Because im still down here
Down in the depths of the ocean
I pray release
And yet im still drowning
What is this pain that i do not die
And yet I cannot live
Release I scream
Yet you ignore me
Is everyone so sad
That they ignore the drowning girl
I drown in the liquid
of my own lack of self control
